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Ever just watch pet fish? Watch them swim around in their bowl? Wonder if they are unhappy swimming in circles, seeing the same things, eating the same things, doing the same things? Does my fish, Flex, even know that my other fish, Murs, is in the bowl with him? Does he even notice the rainbow I put in their to help give them some scenery and something to swim through. Just like school, jobs, and sports are just thrown into the world to give us something to do. The flowers, trees, and ‘mystical wonderlands’ are just scenery to spice up the fact that we are just living in a bowl. Oh, and that fish next to you […]
My life is giving me whip lash.
Every morning, I wake up to a living hell I call home. I hate home. Home isn’t home to me. Home means miserable and uncomfortable feelings. Home is locking myself in my room, crying. I race to get ready for school making the best effort to look at least decent. Khakis and a green shirt, everyday. Once I herd my brothers into the car, late again, no breakfast, and being called a ***** by even my 12 year old brother. The drive to school is always one of my most depressing moments of the day. The music is loud and […]
There is just no reason for me to be feeling this way. I am that bubbly blonde that everyone loves having around. I am a varsity cheerleader, starting varisty soccer player and I got the lead role in my school play. I have a boyfriend, and amazing best friends. I have never been abused or raped or anything, yet I am miserable. There is not a day that the idea of taking my own life out of the world doesn’t cross my mind. Maybe I would be missed for a few days, but then everyone would forget and focus on replacing me. The cheer squad […]