To be honest, I hate planning my suicide. It simply never works! Like you think and think and think and ultimately you fail. I’d rather do it spontaneous, no thinking, nothing. Just happens. Jump off the chair, gun, etc. Like I remember I attempted an overdose out of the blue and it would’ve been successful if there were enough pills. but I knocked the hell out lol. slept for 2 days straight . Point is, the fear wasn’t there I was desperate to escape.
But that’s just my opinion, of course everyone’s different
whenever I’m going through something, the thought of ending it soon- that all this will be over…is very, very comforting. Feels really nice and relieving imagining it. Do you guys do that as well?
Thought things were looking up… Guess not. Any of you feel like your life goes steady then bam crash and burn again.
for some backstory to this, I was diagnosed with BPD (borderline personality disorder), depression, social anxiety along with an anorexia. Now, for some weeks I’ve been extremely depressed, crying all the time, thinking about suicide, etc. So i resorted to heavy restriction, and this is when things became really weird.
The day that I was restricting I felt like i was in some kind of high. So happy. So in control, and my social anxiety wasn’t that bad, i didn’t panic as much in crowded areas. and I was just happy…felt strange to feel all this happiness in once. But I felt like I could do […]