i just tired to tell my firnd i was bipolar. so i said hey im bipolar and her response hey im too! that hit me hard right in the chest and dropped be off a cliff into the waters below. of course no one is going to believe me, me of all people the happy upbeat firend who jokes and gives, but never recieves. so after being deepley hurt and tried to tell her i could have about 15 pchycologists sign a paper stating i was bipolar she said “i have crazy mood swings too” umm excuse me!? i just told you about everything and […]
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i couldn’t take it anymore i fell apart in my room. i was screaming at a butterfly windchime to stop staring at me, then i hurled it across the room. my mom had heard it breal into tiny shards of plastic and came running up. then i cracked.
i blubbed everything i was holding inside. how i wanted to die, how i burned myself, heard voices and had horrible modd swings. then proceeded to cry for two hours while hyperventilating. she told my dad then dragged me to the ER the next day. that was one of the wierdest days of my […]
Just something i wrote during class today,after being yelled at for being a distraction. Just thought id share it with all of you.
im hurtling through life now
full of frendized energy
laughing, dancing, singing and
jittery; my leg wont stop moving.
creative and foucused.
my ambitions are too large.
i love the world, and for once it loves me back.
yet its so wierd to be up high
staring down at those below
having no idea you were insulting
crude or
mean, till someone tells
you so.
then i fall through my cloud of
love and brightness.
and smash into
the rocky spines of
sadness […]
i scare myself so bad. one day im the biggest egomaniac on the planet with plans to star in a movie or start my own clothing line. i laugh uncontrollably but im irritable. yet two days later im quite and feel like i have a giant black hole in my stomach. i cry and burn my arms with a curling iron. during this time i want to kill myself. but when im happy i look back at my scars and it shakes me up inside and makes me feel like im going crazy