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Help me, I can’t breathe anymore.

I am suffocating, what do I do?

I’m panicking, what should I do?

I’m suffering, what can I do?

I can’t breathe anymore, help me.

It has gotten very quiet recently.

I’m starting to wonder if I’m blending my thoughts with reality. Time goes slow and yet days go by. I’m no longer in my body, or when I am, its so painful I’m blinded. Other times though, its like I’m watching this really depressing movie, and how I would like to leave the theater.

If you cry and scream, curse and shout in the dark, and no one hears you, did you exclaim at all? If you live the nights in darkness and the days under a mask, does anybody see you?

I know I shouldn’t put all my hope in her. […]

When I was young, I was given a gift by a tall old man. A very special gift that even then I had come to realize the importance of. It was crudely wrapped in cardboard and tape, but inside was something special indeed. It was mine and yet I wanted to share it with the world.

And so I did. To him and her, them and those too. Even to you. Every time it hurt, because, no one else thought it was special. They saw the wrapping and threw it away, nonplused and repulsed all the same. I was hurt. So I decided to save this […]

My whole life I wanted to trust people. But all I ever get in return is hate and pain.

I have no friends, I’ve only ever had 2 or 3 at maximum at any given time, but now I am alone. So alone.

Since the third grade I have dreamed of finding a girlfriend, a partner, someone who in their own willingness would find me remotely valuable…something worth more than the dirt I feel every day. I still wander alone…I have never been able to know what it is liked to be loved.

Then she showed up. And all of her problems. I don’t know why, of all […]