This is usually my favorite time of year. It reminds of the very VERY few good memories I had as a child.
I donate to the Salvation Army and other charities. I try to give to those around me who are less fortunate, and I keep traditions going for my son and well for myself but this year has been extremely rough. It’s.hard for me to get in the spirit when I feel sad and depressed all the time. My son really doesn’t care about the traditions that much this year, he’s growing up on me.
I just […]
Destroyed on the Inside
Why do I have to suffer from depression. Why cant I be like one of those people who had a rough childhood and survived. Why do I have to have thoughts of sucide or negative thoughts all the time. Why?? Why can’t things get better. I been to counseling , onmedication but the sadness and thoughts are still here. Why did all those bad things have to happen to me as a child. Why did my mother choose to leave me and my siblings. Why do I go through so much pain everyday trying to hide how I really feel so the world doesn’t judge […]
Everyone told me things would get better, they even promised, said I will start to laugh again and eventually find myself. I think I did for a lil while but as soon as my confidence came back, and I started to feel strong, he came back ripping my heart out again. Not as bad this time bc my guards r up. U C when u leave domineering after 12 yrs, a month before there 30th birthday , when they r having health issues, well it hurts; bad!! I felt like my life was ending. It was bad news everyday for months, from the Doctors or […]