It seems like no matter how good a day I end up having and how happy I am someone or something always ends up ruining it and making me want to die I had a good month I think of not cutting and I just did god damnit screw life I feel like I want to start planning again
1) my said things will change where is the change 2)my friends are either distant or cold towards me. 3) I am fat 4)I am ugly. 5)my meds don’t work 6)to much stress at school. 7) boy probs 8) I think I have a stalker. 9) I cut myself. 10) I am passive. 11) I am not good at anything. 12) I am insane but sane ? 13)people are walking on egg shells around me. 14) I am doing bad in school. 15) I am a […]
6 pills are what i took
i needed to find that peaceful nook
more than 12 and down i go
my memory is all you’ll know
i took pills a while back but never died.
What i love:
I hate school
I hate that i am failing
I hate myself
I hate that i am ugly
I hate that i am fat
I hate that no one cares
I hate that i am alone
I hate that my mom is here but not
I hate that only now my dad wants me
I hate that i am on meds
I hate that i cant be happy
I hate that i feel excludedÂ
I hate that my family does not try harder to get me
I hate that things will never changeÂ
What i love:
I love cutting
I love the thought of suicide
I am a fifteen year old girl who hates her apperance who would Love to just finally kill herself and get life over with. I am good at hiding my emotions and i am just so so so tired of going on.
i know people lifes are horribly bad but mine is no walk in the park either. My mom sees what she wants my two older sister care but do they care enough? my dad didnt even want me he wanted my second oldest sister. I have been trying to kill myself since 5th grade. this year i was baker acted twice and i […]