1) my said things will change where is the change 2)my friends are either distant or cold towards me. 3) I am fat 4)I am ugly. 5)my meds don’t work 6)to much stress at school. 7) boy probs 8) I think I have a stalker. 9) I cut myself. 10) I am passive. 11) I am not good at anything. 12) I am insane but sane ? 13)people are walking on egg shells around me. 14) I am doing bad in school. 15) I am a paranoid freak
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ah. numbers 1, 2, 4, 6, 7, 9, 11, 12, 13, and 15 are the same for me. and instead of passive I’m passive-aggressive. and just plain disinterested. by most everything.
holy shit … shut the fuck up and get on with it seriously … “13)people are walking on egg shells around me.” ///what???
try having no job , 12000$ debt , no house next week .. no friends … none! every morning i wake and wonder if i will be able to have some thing to eat .. and if you are wondering my internet connection will be cut in a week , if i could get money back from it i would but i am on a contract … i havnt been in a relationship in 10 years .. and my fucking dog died.
Deathbylies – That was uncalled for. Everyone has their own problems, and trying to “out shine” theirs by posting your own and telling them to “get on with it” is not going to make them feel better. This website is supposed to be a place for people to post what’s bothering them so they can get constructive feedback and support from people who are going through the same things. They shouldn’t have to worry about people belittling their problems.
Hi Dani –
It’s so easy in life to focus on the challenges… and sometimes others will insult us, too… making things worse. What I try to do is make a list and then focus on things one-by-one. A huge list is hard to manage… but a small piece of it is something I can set a goal for and work toward. For example, #14 says you’re doing bad in school. What could you do to improve in school? More studying? Asking for help? Managing your time? Once you identify what you can do, I’d start working on your grades… and then work on something else. There are also thing in life that you can’t control… The only thing you can do is the best you can… and follow your heart. Don’t give up.
I’m sorry you feel this way…none of it is a laughing matter and I know it hurts.
But when I read “3)I’m ugly 4)I’m fat”, it hurt me to know you think of yourself this way.
I’m guessing that people have told you these things, and you’ve began to believe them.
Scenario to explain what I’m getting to: Let’s say there’s a girl that’s never had judgement passed on her by her looks. If she doesn’t have judgement of that sort passed on her, she wouldn’t believe she is ugly or anything like that.
People’s words have a gigantic effect on the human being. Positive words can make you positive, and negative words make you negative. No matter what people say, they will forever care about what other’s think of them. It sucks for me, because I have somehow brainwashed myself into thinking people have these expectations of me, and I need to fulfill them in order to please that person.
It is not that you ARE ugly, it is not that you ARE fat, it is only what others make you believe. You cannot let them do this to you. You are beautiful in every way, dear. No matter what anyone says. They don’t know anything anyways. They don’t know who you really are. They arent a god of some type, so why bother listening to them?
You’re beautiful dear. I know this is a fact.