Well I’eye having been on here in a long time ! Well what did you all miss ? Well I’eye fought my mother and I’m deeply back to smoking after I’eye stop, but I’t makes me feel good. When I’m depressed , that’s what I usually do , unless commit suicide. Well until next time.
Well nothing happen today. Well except for demons talking to me ! Well I been feeling kind of sad today like I want to cry but I’ll just hold my tears inside. Well I don’t why I’m Feeling sad and nothing hasn’t happen too me today ! My brothers and sisters are nobody wasn’t messing with me. Why is this everyday feeling ? I really don’t know !!!!
Well I told my brother that is close to my age about my 19 year old brother sexually abusing me! He Said he already knew about ! Well I just find out my brother use to do things with my sister that always taunt me about being sexual abused . Well I Thought my brother that’s close would understand when I Told him but he said “you could of said no”. He said “you probably had wanted it” and that “everyone get touched I’t Isn’t that big of a deal. I started too feel bad again and said to myself I probably did wanted I’t. […]
Well I got expelled this school year. I been getting and trouble this school year ! I only got suspended 6 times this school year. I Got put out after the six time because I was about to fight this boy. He push my cousin and he was talking bad to me so I snaped and went off. Well the principle decide to expelled me. So when he expelled me I went crazy by punching the wall , crying , screaming , I the hit principle , threw my school I.D at my the principle too , Broke the shelf , threw a pencil at […]
My Sister was tailking about when I got sexual abused. She keeps on taunting me. So I just hit her and we was fighting and the street. The neighbors had too break us up. My mom wasn’t here but if she was she would’ve yelled at my sister. Well my sister been making fun of me ever since I was young but since she live and my house I cant avoid her are what she says.
Well I didn’t smoke today! So I felt Mad and sad today. I was about to smoke with this 18 year old men but I just went in the house! I tried very hard to turn it down. I love weed and very addicted to it. When I smoke my self-esteem goes up. I don’t know why but i always had low self-esteem ever since I was real young. When I don’t smoke I’m very angry and sad and when I think about when I was sexual abuse tears comes down my eyes. Snap Shots Comes in my head of me giving boys oral at […]
Well I be feeling sad and mad all the time for no reason. I’t just pop up on me!!!! I want to go back to school but they told me I had to go to alternative school. I really don’t want to !!! I hang around all grown man and Drug dealors. A couple of them tried to have sex with me but I wasn’t shock because I’m use to men doing me like this. I’m so mature for my age that people my age follows me. Well they parents think I’m a bad influence. Well I always hanged with people older then me. […]
Well I’m the youngest in my house. I’m 13 and everybody else like 2 , 3 , 5 , and 6 years older  then me. My 15 year old sister that was there when I was getting sexually abused keeps taunting me about the sexual abused when I was little  ! She making me feel even more bad about myself. I know I’m doing the wrong stuff like I was about to have sex with a 23 year old man. Well I need to slow down and stop everything I’m doing. Well my mom thinks I try to act like my big sister , with […]
Well I get high everyday !!!. I’m only 13 so I should stop. Well my self-esteem is really low. Alot of people calls me pretty but i just don’t see it. The sexual abuse I went through really tore me down completely!!! Well when i get high , that’s when i be having sex but I be telling myself im going to quit doing the stuff  im doing but when I smoke I feel happy , laugh more, and feel more prettier. Well everyone please give me advice
I started to get Sexually abuse at the age of 3-10.  Well I’m 13 right now. Well I remember snap Shots of when I was 3 ! I don’t remmeber everything. I would go over my auntie house because she would baby sit me while my mom was at work. I just remember my cousin taking my dolls and me crying and he would say “You would half to do this in order to Get your doll back”. Which my cousin was 12 or 13 at the time and I was 3 . He molested  me lots of times as I can remember.He would tell […]