I’m a firm believer that everything written in the Bible was written by people just trying to make a positive difference for the era of the time. It shows its age today with some completely nonsensical demands. And yet, there is still wisdom to be found in it if you look at it. For far too long, I’ve been comparing myself to the lives and achievements of others. I’ve been holding them up and measuring myself against the best of them. Why do I do this? Why do I fall into this trap? My life is my life, no matter where it takes me. Their […]
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Well, I finally decided against tolerating my lifelong depression and anxiety any further. A lifetime of social rejections and being an outcast is just too much to bear as someone who just wanted a normal life. I decided to depart using the Helium method. I feel I’m too much of a ***** to depart using any other method because of the potential lifelong disabilities one could suffer from failure. I got a huge tank of helium, as well as an oxygen mask. The first two times I tried doing this, I chickened out, as was to be expected. I don’t want to die, but I […]
There is still this feeling of loneliness I cannot escape. A deep social isolation which has been embedded into my soul, instilled from childhood. Early in life, I felt the sting of rejection after rejection after I gained weight and lost all my friends. I became a total social outcast for no good reason other than I was different. I struggled during lunch time to find tables to sit at as no one wanted to speak with me. There were many times where I’d spend my lunch time in the bathroom, not wanting to feel publicly awkward. The downward spiral of social rejection continued past […]