I tried again tonight, but I couldn’t make myself do it. I was just laying there beside the train tracks, having a panic attack. My boyfriend kept calling over and over but I didn’t want to hear his voice. I ran away from my house, so my grandma called him thinking I was with him. He wouldn’t stop calling and was scared, and driving around looking for me. And I knew he’d come by the train tracks, and I had 10 more minutes til the next train. I eventually just started walking home cause I knew I couldn’t do it. I’m too big of a […]