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Feeling everything so intensely right now

by DeathofMe 2/19/2013

written by DeathofMe

I saw pictures of him snogging another girl at this party. It’s my 17th next week and I was going to tell him I was sorry and could he forgive me and give us another go.

I’d split up with him because I felt unable to commit myself emotionally, I couldn’t give him the time nor attention he deserved. I think the biggest reason is that I knew he wasn’t in to me, I was just a way for him to get back at his ex, who is one of my close mates.

But I fucking love him. I really do. and I want him to keep […]

2/19/2013 1 comment

I climbed off the railings

by DeathofMe 2/13/2013

written by DeathofMe

I meant to do it. i stood for ages staring at the distant floor and the cars whizzing about mindlessly. I even had both legs over and was perched on the side.

But some part of me still wants to live. And I don’t know why. I don’t know what part of my brain told me to step away and give it a week. But I did, and I am waiting.

I feel so weak. I couldn’ t just let myself go…

2/13/2013 5 comments

Need somebody to listen

by DeathofMe 2/12/2013

written by DeathofMe

I’ve just written a suicide note. I’m really scared. I want saving so badly but I now nothing nor no-one can fix me. No one cares for me, they just pretend to. No one would miss me, not after a little while. It’s really not that I want to die, I just want to stop feeling this excruciating pain. I’m so alone. So frightened. And I have no one.

I started cutting myself to make myself better, see I have this incredible sister. She’s amazing. Perfect. Outstanding grades, Ã¼ber talented, gorgeous and the nicest person in the world. And then there’s me. The fuck-up. I started […]

2/12/2013 6 comments