I tried to write last week while I was seriously weighing the option to leave. I was unable to put sentences together. Here I am again.
I’m a middle-aged man. I’ve struggled with social anxiety, depression, substance abuse (five years clean and sober now) and various shades of mania my entire life. In the last few years, thoughts of suicide have become increasingly common. What bothers me the most is that I don’t find them to be crazy, insane, or unreasonable thoughts when they are occurring or afterward. They seem quite calm and, and not being alive appears to be a completely viable option. That’s the […]