i tried to kill myself the other day. i had a filleting knife. my ex was with me, and i had just apparently scared her like hell, cause i set her on the ground, cause she wouldn’t get out of my way. so she went to her room and cried, and cried… all i said was, “you can’t be scared. you’re like the only thing i have left…” and she turned away from me. i leaned on the wall with both of my hands, let my head back, then slammed it into the wall. i dropped unconscious for a couple seconds, and when i woke […]
so, today, i hung out with my ex, again. i hate having to leave before i have to (i have to be home at 10 on the weekdays). so i left before 8, and right before i left, she just happens to bring up the most random thing, cause i told her a joke about math homework. she brought up something to do with that girl (her friend), who i tried to mess around with, which pissed me off… a LOT. so i just basically stayed silent until i left. she asked me “are you upset or something?” and of course, being the guy i […]
so today, i decided to chill with my ex and one of our mutually close friends. it was incredibly nice today, something like 80 degrees F… the sun was just blaring on me, and i had my shirt off, along with our friend, and she was in a bikini top, and we were just walking around the neighborhood, laughing our asses off, singing songs, and going to battje’s park (cause it has a small lake). that water was limb-numbingly cold lmfao…
but this morning, i woke up, and saw a bottle of unopened nail polish remover…
had i drank that, i more than likely wouldn’t have lived […]
i’ve just been fucking up sooo much lately… me and my girlfriend just broke up not too long ago… now my fucking best friend since like 1st grade, who is also my cousin, decides that he wants to date her. and, what i feel is in an effort to hurt me, stops talking to me, and just completely cuts off all sort of communication. xbox live, facebook, even in school. i wanna strangle that weasly fucker, but if i do that, my ex won’t talk to me anymore. even though she flirted with him throughout our whole relationship, i still wanna talk to em both… […]