I recently found out that a friend of the family was killed. It was definitely sad to see how everyone mourned over his passing. Is it wrong that i looked at this experience of losing this friend and took notes on how to make the pain less for my loved ones instead of looking at it as a sign not to do it.?.?.?
    (the following is a letter I recently wrote in serious consideration with my personal thoughts. Sorry its not Hollywood style beautiful, but it is how I am feeling at the moment)
My dearest family, friends and anyone else that this letter may find its way too… This, in the end, may b worth nothing more then a bad joke because there r no words I can say to express how sorry I am… Sorry that I was blind to the blessings I already had and was selfish enough to think my problems were all that mattered. Sorry that I […]
I’m guessing that religious talk is frowned upon here cuz not everybody has the same beliefs. Guess ill find out if this post gets removed, but… I really wish someone had an answer for me… Do all suicides go to hell…???
They say the holidays r harder then most other times… Maybe its true, but… I just feel lost all the time. I feel selfish cuz my depression is sparked from something so petty compared to others real problems. Non the less, I feel so torn up inside…
Despite wut my loved ones say, iv never done anything to make any1 proud… Getting through highschool so many years ago was the highlight of my achievements and I haven’t had the desire to progress ever since… I’m at a dead end job and will never be able […]
Im supposed 2 b happy right now… My parents were worried that im isolating myself too much so they came to spend the evening w/ me. My dad, in his best insterests, suggested sum drinks cuz we use2 always do that… Iv recently decided to stay away from LQ cuz it doesn’t help, but… I couldn’t tell my dad no. After sum drinks my parents went to bed and i stayed up… Couldn’t stop thinking… Of the reason I’m here… It’s torture… I wish the pain would stop… How do I make it stop…?
My world is quickly crumbling and i see no sign of it letting up. I feel like I have no where to turn and people who know wut I’m going through mock me… This isn’t worth it…
My life has taken a dramatic change for the worse recently… It’s my own fault, but none-the-less it is hard… Harder then anything iv ever experienced… When my life changed, I suddenly found myself alone… Not just without the love that i so deeply desire, but… Without anyone… Why do poeple say that you must learn to be happy on your own before you can learn to love someone else? If you took a couple that was deeply in love, who had both learned previously to be happy on their own, and then tore them apart… It’s not like they would suddenly know what to […]
The other night I had an episode…I started to feel like the pain was taking over. Sometimes I can take a long shower and have a good cry and it releases enough tention to come back, but… This time it just seemed to open up my mind to other options. I got out and against my best judgement began to drink and drink and drink… The tears were to much and the hurting in my chest was crushing… I grabbed my keys and jumped in the car racing down the highway. Luckily within the hour I had come down enough to realize I should go […]