A Instant of Weakness

The other night I had an episode…I started to feel like the pain was taking over. Sometimes I can take a long shower and have a good cry and it releases enough tention to come back, but… This time it just seemed to open up my mind to other options. I got out and against my best judgement began to drink and drink and drink… The tears were to much and the hurting in my chest was crushing… I grabbed my keys and jumped in the car racing down the highway. Luckily within the hour I had come down enough to realize I should go home b4 I hurt some1 else. I came back home and sent some text messages I probably shouldn’t have. After not getting the responses that my drunk mind desired, I opened a bottle of sleeping pills but got scared and only wanted to take enough to sleep 4 a long time… This was Sunday night… It’s Tuesday… I dont want this to sound like a cry for attention or anything… My intent was not to try and hurt any1 else either… I had a stupid weak moment where the pain was unbearable and acted on instinct… I feel like I don’t have enough resources to vent before it becomes too much… My problems r petty but my pain is very real…