For the first time in my life i do not have any self confidence, or cares in this world. Two trips to Iraq, 13 years in the military and I am contemplating taking my own life. I just had my second cervical fusion surgery a week a go, and my fiancee dumped me two days ago. I am not sure where to begin, my military career may be over and my first thought of having a real family of my own is gone. i’m lost and don’t know what to do.