I’ve been suicidal ever since I can remember. I have such a bad panic disorder and I’m socially phobic so I can never go anywhere that I’m not a totally nervous wreck. I often wear sunglasses if I go somewhere because that helps. Many times I can’t even go out of the house for days and days. Then I sneak out after midnight and go to the store. I’ve always been this way so at least I’m used to it. Because of these problems and being germ phobic I have never even had a relationship. I don’t expect to ev er have one. I don’t […]