Earlier I tried to hang myself. To be honest it was partly experimental but now I’m surrounded by my family and won’t get another chance to try again ( hopefully for the final time) until tomorrow. What the hell can I do in the mean time!!!??!!?!??!?
Yes I’m suicidal, hence my username. That may explain the dream of me seeing a documentary on TV about a boy who commit suicide and was dead but lived? ( yeah my dreams don’t like logic) anyway, I watch the entire documentary; it showed where and how he grew up and how he killed himself and his funeral ceremony. At the end the boy who committed suicide was alive and grown up saying theres hope for all depressed teenagers. That was when I broke my eyes away from my TV and realised that I was sitting in my living room which had a mahogany coffin […]
Here I am, waiting for death. I’m too tired to look for ‘the light at the end of the tunnel’ why can’t a train just come hurtling through and kill me?
Why do I feel depressed when almost everything in my life is perfect? Why do I have such a death wish for myself?
Sorry for all the self obsessed questions, please tell me I’m a selfish ***** who deserves to die a painful death.
Yes, it’s official, I couldn’t jump and now I have to face the consequence that I might be stuck here until I die of natural causes. How the he’ll am I going to do that?
I’ve told noone about my latest attempt but I had two ‘friends’ with me at the time and as I was standing on the edge they………
Walked away.
I don’t know why I didn’t take the opportunity to end it then and there, though I was worried it wasn’t high enough but there aren’t any higher structures that I can get to.
Time for another google ‘suicide methods’ search I think.
help
I have been feeling like this for a while now, sleep walking through life with the thought of suicide as my only hope. Recently I have been planning something I’ve never thought of before. I’m 99% sure that this is what I want. But 1% is, shall we say, nagging me to get help…I suppose this is my pathetic attempt to do just that.
I need to end my life.
…help?