I don’t know why it’s so hard to want to do anything. My antidepressant isn’t doing a thing for me. I want to want to get out and breathe the chilly morning air. I want to feel like finally practicing sewing. I want to actually make a plan to see my mom. I want to feel like getting out of bed in the morning instead of sleeping until 2pm. – I have maybe a couple of friends, but I never hang out with them – I feel like I just drag them down, like they’d be better off without me. I feel boring, tired, stupid, […]
I’m almost 22, but I feel old. People have said that I am an old soul, but I think that’s just because I’ve had too much alone time to think. I’ve been mistrustful of people since I was a kiddo, and since then I have become isolated and friendless. My two younger brothers are going through their own psychological trials and keep to themselves. My older sister was like a beast when we were little, and I can’t even bring myself to express how much I resent the ways she manipulated and hurt me. I hardly talk to her. My mom is emotionally distant, due […]