(Sry if it’s long)
I seriously have no idea what to do. I’m a huge procrastinator when it comes to homework, but I usually get a grip and get it done at some point. Tonight is different. I have a ton of stuff to do and i don’t feel like doing it at all. The stress of all of my classes is literally making me cry, but I can’t drop them or go into lower ones because my parents won’t let me and I have plans to go to college. At least I thought I did, but lately I just want to quit school. I’m […]
Well I did it. I made my parents cry again. This has been happening a lot recently. Tonight it was a math problem. I know, don’t say anything, I know. I was trying to complete a math ws, of course I didn’t understand any of it, so I go downstairs to ask for help. My dad begins to explain something in a way that I didn’t comprehend well, and I went off. Anxiety and depression took over, causing me to have a severe breakdown and run to the bathroom to cry. I’ve been in here for an hour now listening to my parents cry and […]
I am slowly falling apart, having peices of my life ripped out of my hands and showed into an inaccessible part of me. There are times where I feel sad. There are times where I feel lonely. There are times where I feel empty….the list goes on and on. I’ve tried to drop subtle hints to my parents that I’m not ok, but they just don’t get it. They don’t understand that I feel physical pain when they yell at me. That I feel like a waste of space and a complete mistake when they talk about me behind my back. They don’t understand that […]
I am under a great deal of stress at the moment. It’s finals week at school and I have my Algebra 1 exam tomorrow. This test will not only determine if I’m going to pass the class, but also place me into a ranking chart of students heading into Algebra 2. Ever since I was 11 years old, I wanted to be perfect. My dream is to go to Harvard, but I’m so stupid and ignorant that that probably won’t happen; nevertheless, I feel as if I have to get a perfect score on this test in order to determine my self worth. If I […]
I can’t handle it anymore. I can’t handle the constant stress, the overwhelming feelings of depression and anxiety, the unbelievable sense of failure. My friends and family don’t listen to or believe my cries for help. Help. Something that seems reassuring, something that seems within my grasp, yet I know I’ll never get it. I’ll always struggle, always be a burden. I’m sorry I give people grief and sadness when they see me, I’m sorry I can’t be perfect, I’m sorry I rant out my problems to people who already have enough of their own. I’m sorry I’m alive…
I used to be happy. I used to be full of joy. I used to be bursting with life. What happened? What made me feel this way, living with so much hate and emptiness? I’m an average person with nice friends, a caring family, and an endless amount of love in their heart, right? Wrong. That’s what people think about me, that’s what people believe that I am. Sadly, they don’t know the real me. In reality, I’m a wreck. I have had depression for a month, suffer from anxiety attacks, and lack motivation, not to mention the constant emptiness I feel. I recently started […]