I can’t take anymore of these endless tortuous days. I have had hope for years of getting better and determined to find an answer but now, I don’t have any energy left for hope anymore. I’m not getting better and obviously I’m not going to get any better so it’s time to plan for leaving. I have to wind up a few things and find a way to leave first. I really wanted to get better but it’s not working out that way.
I lay here and pray for death. i can’t abandon pets but am very ready to go. have thought about boarding pets then coming home and doing it.
I want death so badly and am so ready. There is no reason for me to be here. No friends, no family that really is in my life. They are all on the levels of acquaintances so I wouldn’t be grieved and my death would just be a minor nuisance for someone to call salvation army and haul shit out of apt. No friends, no family just years of battling insmonia/dysthymia/depression. My prayers are to die. I […]
I was wondering if anyone else here is older like me. I am well over 50. Seems everyone is 30 and under here. Just curious.
I thought I had posted this last night but don’t see it. I don’t really understand all the SEO stuff but I checked them all. It seems like the most secure thing to do.
Anyway, all I can think of is ending my life here and planning it in terms of finding a few pets other homes, etc. I am older so it’s not like I have “my whole life ahead of me”. Depression/dysthymia with a few major episodes, nervous breakdowns, excruciating pain then surgeries then more excruciating pain, pain meds addiction. Finally managed to get out of pain and thru several Dr.s and bad doctoring […]