ErasedEon

How do I just let go of all of my cares? I feel as though I am close to not caring about anything going on in my life anymore, but there’s still something that lingers. I want to get rid of it so I will be able to do whatever I want and not care about anything that could happen. So that maybe I can die and not have to have regrets or anything like that, because I will just tell myself it doesn’t matter anyway. I don’t know if that makes sense or not. I just hope one of these days I will get […]

I’m so tired. The smallest little things are weighing down on me. I am trying so hard to keep going, but it’s inevitable, isn’t it? In the end it won’t matter how long I tried, because I will end up failing, won’t I? Day by day I try to keep the thoughts at bay, but it’s no use. I feel as though one of these days I will reach my limit, and then who knows what will happen. I feel like just waking up is such a burden sometimes. I don’t know why I try anymore. I’ve been thinking, maybe I should start a countdown […]

Is there no point for me anymore? I’ve noticed some things. Things going on in my life. Things that make me think I’m better off dead. Nobody appreciates my existence anymore. Nobody seems to care about me. Even if they say they do, I feel that they must be lying. I feel like they are just saying it and there is no truth behind it.

My friends don’t laugh at my jokes anymore…

I guess I shouldn’t be surprised. I should’ve known that people would leave me behind sooner or later. I don’t think it’s their fault, I think it’s mine. I feel as though I’m seen more as […]

Sometimes I really wish people would leave me alone. They have such high expectations and they think so highly of me that sometimes I worry what would happen if I were to do something that they wouldn’t think I would do. I don’t know how to cope with this. I don’t want to let them down, but at the same time I really don’t care. It’s so confusing. I don’t want them to change the way they see me, but sometimes I think it can’t be helped. I just don’t want them to think of me badly I guess. I don’t know…

I’m sorry… I’m not […]

Sometimes, I just wish someone would notice. I want someone to just realize that I’m hiding behind a mask. I wish they would see through me. I wish they would plan to save me. But I guess that doesn’t happen in this world. Maybe I’m unrealistic. I mean, how could anyone know if you constantly pretend everything is perfect. I guess they wouldn’t… I don’t know. I feel like I’m giving hints, but I guess nobody catches them or nobody cares… I don’t know anymore.

I’m sorry… I’m not your hero anymore.

Do heroes exist? I sure could use one right now…

I’m sorry… I’m not your hero anymore.

Why can’t I just reset everything. Reset my entire life. All of the mistakes. All of the failures. All of the bad memories. All of the regrets. Everything. I can’t do anything right now. I feel so stuck. There’s nothing worth doing in my life right now. It all seems so bleak. So futile. I don’t want to keep waiting, because I don’t know what I’m waiting for. I don’t know if it’s good or bad. So maybe if I could reset my life, I might be able to get a sense of direction and lead it towards a better place… but I can’t. I […]

It’s all coming back now. All of the stress that I had once forgotten about. All of the work that overwhelms me. Of course it came back. Of course it wouldn’t leave. These things seem so tedious and routine to everyone else, but to me they are only a reminder that I can’t handle anything and that any little thing could set me off. One wrong word. One wrong action. They remind me that I’m not like everyone else. I can’t seem to handle things, but everyone else can. Everyone else is smart and hardworking, but then there’s me. And when they talk about their […]

I saw a stranger a few minutes ago as I was walking home. I think she was crying because she was sniffling and her face was a bit red. I kept walking for a bit until I stopped. I looked back at her and she was still walking the other way. I stood there and thought for a bit about what I should do. I wanted to see if she was okay. I walked towards where she went and I saw her, but I decided to leave anyway because I was supposed to get home at a certain time. I wish I would’ve done something. I […]

Everyone seems to have better lives than me. I’m jealous. They’re lucky. They have better lives than me and I don’t understand why. They have plenty of interesting things to do and they don’t have to worry about the things that I worry about. I wish I could live their lives for once.

I’m sorry… I’m not your hero anymore.

I feel empty and tired as hell. Life is exhausting. Everything is starting to weigh down on me. Everything is making me feel overwhelmed, even just little things. Why am I still here? I really don’t know anymore. Maybe I’m still thinking that there could be happiness somewhere. Or maybe not.  Then why don’t I just do something? If I have nothing to lose, why can’t I just do something? Anything. Why can’t I find myself? I should be going on an adventure to look for the old me, but for some reason I can’t. Maybe I’m too scared. Maybe it won’t even work. Maybe […]

What happened to me? Why did this happen to me? I don’t know anymore. My anchors on reality are starting to slip. I want someone to help me, and yet I don’t want anyone knowing about it. I don’t know what I want to do with this life. I don’t know where I’m going. I don’t know where my happiness lies. I think happiness has left me for good. This broken and devastated world has no place for me. I don’t know how much longer I can keep this going. Maybe if I just didn’t care about anything anymore then my problems would vanish. Maybe […]

I don’t know why exactly, but I have this thing that I would like to do. It might sound weird and it might not make any sense and it might not have any meaning to it, but I just want to yell. I want to go to some place where I can be alone for a while and I can just scream. I don’t know if anyone or anything will be listening, but I just want to rant about everything bad that’s ever happened. I want to let my feelings be known. I don’t know if it’ll make me feel any better, but I might […]

I just want to escape into my own world. I wish everything would stop and that I could forget every bad thing that has ever happened. I don’t want to keep feeling these useless emotions. Can I return to the past so that the present can go back to normal? Would it be possible? Is there even a slight possibility that things can change back to the way they once were? Back the times when everything was all filed with smiles and laughter and moments that would last forever. Can I go back so that I won’t have to face these things anymore? Please. Take […]

I’ve ruined everything. I wish I didn’t try. I was proud of myself for trying to stand up for myself, but in the end, they ended up destroying my life. I don’t know what to do with myself. This world is cruel. If I only knew then what I know now, I wouldn’t have gotten myself into this horrible mess. Everything is destroyed and it’s all my fault.

I’m sorry… I’m not your hero anymore. 

I can’t live like this for much longer. I can’t. It’s so unfair knowing that the things I want the most in life cannot be achieved because of how insignificant I am. It doesn’t feel good when the thought keeps coming back up. I guess I was born with no purpose. If I was then I probably won’t achieve it. I don’t even know what I’m doing anymore. I’m drifting through life. Just waiting for things to get better even though it seems they never do. Sometimes I get the feeling that the problems I have now are nothing compared to the horrible things that […]

Maybe life wasn’t meant for me. I can’t do the things I would really want to do. I can’t seem to control my life. I can’t live up to the ideals that I have in my mind. I wish things were easier, but they aren’t. Reality is cruel, which is why I try to find some form of escape. I don’t see the point in life. Eventually, my life will not mean anything. I will not have an impact on the future. 100 years from now, people may not even know my name. What is the point in anything if I’ll just be forgotten. What’s […]