A few days ago, I wrote a piece describing my ordeal on the day that I attempted to off myself. That day still feels surreal to me; I don’t know how or why I didn’t go through with it. I had to make up yet another lie to convince my parents to let me back. I just did not have it in me to divulge to them that I’m not attending any school, so had to make up a story that I couldn’t get a proper loan and wanted desperately to keep that from them while searching for a job in hopes of landing […]
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Eshloo
Last Friday, I made my first half-hearten attempt to end myself by climbing to the highest point on the mountain and jump off the edge. Unfortunately, I just couldn’t bring myself to go off the cliff–I’m a coward, just like what I’ve always been all my life. It was too public; too many kids, hikers, over-lookers lurking around to run over the fence and off the edge. Opportunity presented itself on several occasions, but I was weeping so hard inside to make the go. One thing that really held me back was the fact that there is a steep decline before going over the edge, […]