eternaldarkness

WHY in fucking September is it still 94 fucking degrees? For the past 4 fucking months, it’s been blisteringly hot and humid and disgusting. Sweat dripping literally 10s after you step outside.

THEN in a week, it goes from hot, sweltering summer 90s weather, to suddenly being cold, so cold that you now need a fucking jacket during the morning and nights. A week ago you sweated through your tank top and shorts!

And HOW is it possible for it to be both HUMID and COLD? WTF?
The temperature has dropped significantly during the morning and night, and it’s quite chilly now, but […]

Why is it that some ppl have to suffer so much while others have it made, without having done anything to deserve it? Some ppl win the birth lotto- 99% of your life is determined by who you’re born to and where. Who your parents are and how much wealth they have (or not) 100% determines your fate. If you were born in Africa, you’d be screwed (yes i know, not all parts of Africa are bad off). If your parents were selfish assholes and never treated you well since a baby, well, you’re in for a lifetime of mental issues/depression/trauma, […]

So the short version is this:

I was in a guild in this money-sucking game.

1- The Guild Master and the top SIX members left suddenly, without warning and without notice. Basically dooming the guild and everyone that was left.
2- So I joined another guild. That guild kicked me out after like less than hour. I ofc hadn’t done anything. No decency to even message me as to why I was kicked out.
3- So I joined another guild but that guild was a baby guild and there’s no one on my level to do Adventures with.
4- So I left and […]

The stereotype of the old crochety senior citizen is true- I’m now “middle age” but the older I get, the more people and things annoy me. And the less I patience I have with humans and things in this world.

1. Crying babies / screaming toddlers / unruly little shits
Holy shit- I can’t take the screaming little brats. I just wish I could go and smack them. *whack!* lol I swear, kids were MUCH better behaved when I was younger. Previous generations smacked their kids if they misbehaved or were […]

There was this sci-fi episode- possibly an Outer Limits episode- where the Father in this small town had the ability to make anyone and anything disappear. They’d get transported into this other “dimension.” The Daughter turns out to be even more powerful than the Father as she is able to bring people/anything she sent away back.

Anyhow, I fucking WISH I could make ppl disappear. Or at least send them to another dimension so that they’d fucking behave when you let them back.

OFC, this only works if you are the only person that has this ability. If more than a few ppl […]

So I’m playing this game that requires you to be in a guild and last night, the guildmaster/leader suddenly tells us in chat that he’s “too busy” to be a guild leader anymore and left the guild- WITH the TOP strongest 5-6 players. They ALL left together. Sounds like they all left to start another guild on their own, or jumping to another server. Very SUS that ALL 6 top strongest players left all at the same time. There’s only 30 ppl allowed in a guild so 6 is a LOT.

Pretty fucking shitty what the GM did, leaving so suddenly and […]

I took several Psych classes in HS and in College. And we were all taught just how “revolutionary” and “amazing” this guy was, to be revered, respected and his theories put up on a pedestal to be taught worldwide. This “Father” of Psychology / “Father” of Psychoanalysis.

When in reality he’s a junkie who was addicted to cocaine for more than a decade and did a bunch of questionable and morally bankrupt things. Died at age 44, so how much actual “research” did the guy actually do? They cherry picked all the so-called “good” things he did and conveniently left out […]

What if…everything you’ve done in the last 10 years has been one mistake after another after another? And you’re still making mistakes? What if we’re so fucked up we’re incapable of making the “right” decisions? I don’t mean things like doing drugs or alcohol or obvious fuck ups. But like making the RIGHT life decisions for us in the long run. What if we think we’re making the right decisions at the time but every decision we’ve made in the last decade has turned out bad, bad and worse?

What if every time we “zigged” we should’ve “zagged”? And that […]

Is there something you have done/not done that you regret and can’t forgive yourself for? Doesn’t have to be a “bad” thing we’ve done, could just be a stupid decision or something you didn’t realize could have such impact and lasting consequences.

There’s many stupid decisions I made that at the time I couldn’t have predicted it would lead to this, but nonetheless the present is the way it is bc of past stupid decisions/actions/inactions. It’s not easy to forgive oneself bc each of those decisions have led me to my current fucked up life. Some fucking up my health- not […]

I’ll start with these few idiotic things:

(back when I worked)
-In the summer when it’s hot as shit, you go into your office building/floor and it’s cold af, the AC cranked to the hilt so much so to the point that you actually put ON a giant ass winter jacket or sweater to keep you warm. And it’s literally 98 degrees outside.
-In the winter when it’s cold af, snowing outside, they BLAST the heat in the office to the point where you come in and literally strip down to a tshirt bc it’s that hot in there.
-In the middle of winter, where […]

Are people here also disappointed in “online friendships”? You think you get along well with someone online, maybe even chatting for months. Then they suddenly ghost you, or maybe they were never good friends with you to begin with and you find out just how little you mean to them. Online “friendships” disappear faster than an ice cream cone on a hot summer day.

But then again, it’s not like I make many friends in person either… -.-

Why TF is it still 90 FUCKING degrees here in this goddamn shitty city? I HATE where I am at. It’s been fucking disgusting ALL summer, the most miserable 4 fucking months. It’s fucking SEPTEMBER FFS. It shouldn’t still be so hot and humid and disgusting in SEPTEMBER!! For me, there’s health issues so it’s not just oh I don’t like summer. It super aggravates me skin condition and I can’t walk outside at all. Not to go get food, nothing. Even indoors is disgusting bc my POS AC is utter crap. UGHHHHHH.

I HATE my fucking life […]

For those of us with childhood abuse and/or neglect, are we just doomed for life? I mean sure, many ppl can continue to work and go through the motions of “life,” but how many of us damaged folks will actually live a HAPPY fulfilled life, free from our internal angst and inner turmoil?

ESPECIALLY those of us with severe childhood mental/physical abuse and neglect? Those with less abuse and neglect might be able to lead perfectly decent lives, but those who experienced severe abuse and trauma- do any of us really have a chance? I don’t think so. I’ve talked […]

Here comes AI to take all our jobs away and make humans obsolete.
And not everyone sees AI as a problem? “I’ve been programmed for good”…yeah, and all it takes is for someone to hack or program in something nefarious. Like everything doesn’t get hacked these days.

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That’s what my mother has always been, and will always be. WHY was I so stupid to not realize she’s the same old evil ***** who had abused me my whole childhood? What an idiot to think she’s changed or gotten better now that she’s old. She’s still the same lying manipulating ***** she always was. All she does is fucking lie to me and treat me like absolute dirt. I can’t fucking stand her. It’s been absolute HELL the second I got here.

Shitty ppl never change.

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Life has been ABSOLUTE MISERY since the LITERAL DAY I moved here. Folks, do NOT ever move in with your selfish fucked up mom who never cared much about you growing up. WHY was I stupid enough to move back here? Bc I had nowhere else to go (thanks to SISTER who fucking made me give up my rent controlled apt) and bc I thought it would be a separate “studio” so it would be separate from her place and that it would be renovated.

Little did I know, that ONLY PARTS of the bathroom and kitchen would be renovated, and the rest […]

My idiot mother 1- hired a shit contractor 2- never checked the work of the shit contractor and 3- tries to either blame ME for all the shit that went wrong OR doesn’t ADMIT that there’s a FUCKING PROBLEM.

Since DAY1 of my moving in here, the toilet, sink and shower has been nonstop leaking, idiot gets called to fix it, he comes SIX TIMES, and STILL hasn’t fixed the leak in the sink. Took him THREE times to fix the shower leak. He never fixed the toilet that was sucking water from the bowl into the tank, almost like a half-flush it […]

Part of the reason why SO many ppl have depression/low wages/shit lives is bc there’s just too many damn ppl in this world!! I remember growing up and when it hit 5B ppl, we were like, OMG it’s so overcrowded, panic panic panic. And now fast-forward to 2023 and ppl are making MORE babies than ever WTF.

8B ppl now. All fighting for the same resources. All fighting for the same jobs. All competing for the same shit wages.

8B ppl means overcrowding. Means TONS of pollutions. Means cities are chock full of ppl, everyone on top of […]

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huh…this is interesting…
Williams syndrome

Never heard of this condition till I came across this video today.