eternaldarkness

Let’s say for the sake of argument that these are the only two possibilities- you can either be blissfully happy but an idiot, or be a genius but utterly depressed, suicidal and hopeless.

Which would you pick? Happy idiot or Suicidal genius? And why?

So there’s this bracelet that I used to wear, but literally haven’t worn in YEARS because the 2 circle metal charms made the bracelet too heavy. And I never threw it out cuz it was still in great condition and was from a time when I wasn’t so depressed.

Well, finally today I managed to remove the 2 charms with some finangling, and whala! SO much better. It feels much lighter and I’m way more apt to wear it now. I know, it’s a silly thing, but it made me feel good for a bit, that I managed to change […]

-Wondering why my fridge feels colder than usual lately. So I turned the knob to lower the coldness only to find out a few days later I had mistaken turned it even COLDER. lol

-Took off my underwear to shower the other day, only to realize that I had put it on inside out the day before. LOL (to be fair, it was plain and the inside looked pretty much like the outside).

-Bought some tea online, only to find right AFTER I bought the tea that it’s now on sale. Doh!

-What are your silly DOH! moments?

as a kid. What kind of lies were you told as a child?

– “swallowing watermelon seeds will make a watermelon grow inside of you”
– “you can be anything you want to be”
– “only good things happen to good people”; “the good will be rewarded and the bad will be punished”

What’s the worst advice you’ve been given, or told?

-Is it sweets? (pastries, cakes, candy, ice cream)
-Carbs? (breads, rice, potatoes, chips)
-Eating too much meat?
-Eating too much junk food?
-Eating too much processed food?
-Dairy? (milk, cheese)
-Coffee?
-Sodas?
-Or just plain eating too much?

btw, Chip & SadPotato- I’ve been eating WAY WAY more potato chips since you guys came on SP o_O

lol, wouldn’t it be nice if your weakness is a hankering for spinach like popeye? 😛

that you’d like to change about yourself?

If wishes could be granted, what would you wish for?

Let’s say you could only have up to 3 wishes, no wishing for unlimited wishes, and wishing to be dead is a given.

Have you ever wished to live any life other than yours? Or to be anybody else other than you?

I want to escape me. The me that I am is so tortured and in pain.

You know how Cinderella eats a poison apple and goes into a coma? That actually doesn’t sound so bad. Well, I’d prefer a sleep to death, but anyway. Was thinking, instead of an apple, it’d be a cake. A delicious poison cake. mmm…

1- How much of your day are you depressed?
Half the time? More like 90% of the time? Or like 10% of the time?

2- How much of your overall life are you depressed? On avg?
The 1st question is more short-term, day to day, or like the last few weeks. The 2nd question above is more long-term, like overall, over years and decades.

Or shall we parse it out, like this:
1- Short-term (currently, lately):
“Happy” 1% of the time, “Meh” 14% of the time, “Depressed” 85% of the time
2- Long-Term (over lifetime, last several decades):
“Happy” 10% of the time, […]

that you think you can never get back what you had or were? Things that are irreparable? How does one live with oneself?

I just wish to have never existed. I want my pain to end. I want my suffering to end.

I hate my life.
I hate everything that’s happened to me.
I hate how everything in my life is fucked up now.
I hate that there are no good answers or solutions.
I hate that I’m fucking miserable.
I fucking hate everything.
I hate this fucking world.

Words can’t describe how broken I am and how fucked up my life is now. No, I am not a teen who thinks their life is over. I’ve lived long enough to know and experience exactly how fucking shitty life sucks. I don’t know what to do other than cry and scream. I feel so […]

:'(

Wow, I didn’t know Lindsay is actually talented and could sing like that. Stumbled across on this on YouTube today. She’s a trainwreck because of all the crap she’s had to grow up with. I think many of us on here can relate to that. I wish the media and public didn’t so viciously tear her apart like that.

Anyhoo, thought I’d share this video. It really resonated with me and made me cry.

Thought this was interesting. What do you think? I have loads of anger so for me this is true.

Anger?
Annoyance?
Despair?
Frustration?
Emptiness?
Hate?
Hopelessness?
Tired?
[fill in the blank]

These are some of the ones I could think of. Feel free to insert your own. Which one is your strongest emotion, what consumes you, what are you much of the time?

For me, it is ANGER. Rage. Fury. That is me. Anger at this shitty world, anger at the shitty people I know personally, anger at the shitty people that I don’t know but exist in real life (corrupt cops, politicians, etc). I am just a ball of anger and rage. What ‘ball’ are […]

It’s like everyone’s an asshole these days. This world has gone to sh*t.