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Feeblefish

Born in '88 to loving, if somewhat flawed parents. Went to school and found that I couldn't fit in with normal people. I found at least two oddballs who liked me. Both of them died in tragic circumstances. Left school, Moved to the cultural and emotional wasteland that is Milton Keynes, UK Got a dead end Joe job, Got my own place and am now waiting to die. I like the ocean,composing music and reading. I don't like crowds. They make me paranoid.

Day by day.

by Feeblefish 2/6/2014

written by Feeblefish

This is related to http://suicideproject.org/2014/02/31st-of-may-2014/

I know this place is more of a message board but I want a public record of my efforts. Also this way if I’m doing anything wrong or just plain stupid then somebody can tell me.

Day 1. Wednesday 5th of February.

My initial thoughts were that I needed to spread my wings a little so I booked some time off work and booked a trip to Vietnam. I have a friend that lives there and he says I can stay a few weeks. I’ve never been before and I figured that if These are my final months I need to see some […]

2/6/2014 14 comments

31st of May 2014

by Feeblefish 2/4/2014

written by Feeblefish

I’ve given myself until the above date to find some meaning and joy in my life. If I can’t find it. Then that’s it.

I’m not gonna sit on my arse and mope. I’m going to try. I’m going to pull my soul apart with every second in attempt to find my meaning. This way I know I tried my best and have no regrets.

I’m not an attention seeker. I will follow through with all that you read. But I want some sort of record of my decision.

2/4/2014 13 comments

Tedium.

by Feeblefish 1/30/2014

written by Feeblefish

This isn’t really something I usually do, I’m more of the “bottle it up” kind of guy, but I really need to get this out and Google led me here as an appropriate place to do so. It’s up to you if you want to read all this, but at least if you do, I have some validation of my efforts. Which I imagine would be nice.

Well… here goes.

I should be happy or satisfied enough really, shouldn’t I?

I mean, I did life right. I left school, got a steady dead end job and got myself a place to live independently. In this […]

1/30/2014 13 comments