the clock says 11:25 p.m., meaning there’s thirty-five minutes left of saturday, twenty-fifth of march 2017. in thirty-five minutes time it will be mother’s day. it’s never a good day for me, since 2013, this is the fourth mother’s day i’ve had with no mum. i miss her every single day but since I was only ten when she passed in 2012 lately i’ve realised she’s slipping from my memory. the last few years have been insanely hectic, and i have grown so much emotionally and physically. im almost fifteen, and it will be five years in june that she passed. sometimes I remember things […]
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so this is my first post here. it isn’t my first time here, i sometimes come to this page, i feel like i’m more understood here, and i hope that’s a good thing.
i really am not okay, although nobody believes me. i feel like im constantly being pulled in two different directions, on one hand i really just want to leave this world and all this suffering behind and on the other i feel waaaay too guilty and scared to do so. i’m quite pathetic really.
i don’t want to be here anymore…