I’ve posted about my mother before and how we really don’t get along. I am so sick of having to sit and listen to her complain about my dad, and now she’s saying that he’s making us move house for his own reasons (I don’t live with my dad, he won’t have me). Then she said it, that when we move house she wants me to go and live somewhere else. She’s happy for my 22-year-old brother to stay with her and my 19-year-old sister, but not me. What are you supposed to do when even your own mum doesn’t want you?
I don’t know what to do any more. Everything I try to do fails, my friends are all starting to give up on me and I don’t fit in with my family, they keep on making my life a living hell and I know that I can’t keep on going on like this.
Every day I think about just ending it all, it would be so much easier. I find my self lying awake at night unable to sleep and imagining how much better off everyone would be if I wasn’t here any more.
I want to get some help, but I’m so scared to go […]
I just want to talk to someone who understands how I’m feeling. Every evening I get into bed and literally cry myself to sleep. My friends try to talk to me and give me advice but they don’t understand. I tell them that I’m just not happy, that I simply don’t have the energy to get out of the house all of the time. But they don’t understand why, they say that I’m making myself be like this, that I would be happy if I really wanted to. They don’t understand why I say that it isn’t as simple as that.
My other friends seem to […]
So I’m nearly 18 and I can’t really remember the last time that I was actually happy. I have a few friends but they don’t understand why I feel the way that I do. I want to give up but I everytime I’m about to I remember what my mum said when I was little; that people who give up are pathetic. I don’t want to leave knowing that that’s what my mum would think of me. I don’t know why I care what she would think anyway she wants me gone, they all do. My mum has told me before that she regrets having […]