I am pretty sure endofanera passed. She was very determined to succeed. I won’t give out the details but a  little detective work gets the job done
RIP. i know I should be sad but this gives me hope. I know she wanted this so much. Â I’m getting closer and this helps me steady myself. It will be okay.
If anyone has read my previous posts, you’d know that I’m not really here for affirmation or advice to deal with a boyfriend, family troubles, friends, etc. I’m here to maximize my chance for a successful end, and I hope to find those who are able to give me advice on that end.
I have planned to leave by summer but am struggling to clean everything, put my affairs in order, etc. This is a must. I believe in a well-planned out suicide, so there will be no such thing as a short “crisis moment” or a poor decision based on a situational crisis. I need […]
The condition of one of my rooms is absolutely, horribly disgusting. There’s spilled soda soaked into the carpets, crumbs all over the floor, dirty laundry, and probably something like 30+ bottles of empty diet soda.
I guess the reason I am posting this is that I am ready to die but too depressed to go through the preparations. I am thinking about hiring someone to clean out my car, pack up my belongings, etc. because I want to have a rational, planned out suicide and will never make an impulsive decision to do so. But unfortunately, I am too tired to go  through with the cleaning and […]
I’ve been depressed for a long time, but this time, it’s different. I have finally entered that stage where I truly believe that I have it in me to commit suicide. My reasons for doing so have also shifted. My attitude towards death has shifted. I feel like a completely different person. I have come to believe that under certain circumstances, suicide is an acceptable option. To be honest, when I come on here, I try to cut to the chase. I skim over the posts about being sad, upset, etc. I look for the posts that will help me formulate more concrete plans to […]
I feel so at home when I’m here. This is a different place that I have ever been before. I use a journaling website, but the depression sites are usually filled with younger people who are not actively planning or who have ineffective plans–you know, methods like, “oh, I’ll just slit my wrists” that will likely not work. There are no discussions about debating of methods, pros/cons and the preparation beforehand. I read on here with a fever and excitement that I rarely feel. I feel like I discovered the jackpot–I am rolling in gold-worthy information.
Does anyone else here want to commit suicide–but is deathly (no […]
I think I might actually go through my suicide plan and it scares me. I want to raise chickens. I want to be married and I want to adopt a child. I want to run half-marathons, get a cat, have a job, and to enjoy the holidays.
But I am so tormented by my own thoughts. I am in a prison, trapped by disgust and self-hate. I am 28 years old and have nothing about me that is lovable. On Friday, I spent about 8 hours binging and purging. On Saturday, I ate food from under the bed, and then headed off to an undergraduate dining […]
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