I feel so ill I dont know why mayb I’m dying on the outside to went to bed at 530 the clocks went forward which sucked so lost time and sleep feel the the living dead is this how zombies feel numb and dragging their feet
im bored whats the time were everyone is let’s chat ? Post or email not bothered topic ? Anything I spy ? XD lool
anyone heard or seen darktide ? Haven’t see anything from him I think he’s a guy or girl but anyone heard anything ?
how do u upload music guys like from you tube to here
thanks
The we all mad here isn’t pointed at no one I just thought it was cool so don’t take it to heart 
Today has been a good day done two drawings and finished my song was singing my heart out need to record it now
I know this mood won’t last so need to make the most of it when your depressed you sometimes get a glimps of light in the darkness but the flame burns out very quickly then it’s back to the darkness to fight with my demons once more
hows everyone ? Darktide were u at my friend
its the first time in months I drew something it’s a bit rusty but thought I would share it with u guys try put some colour in my life though all the darkness 
good night my SP family il leaving my email here if anyone what’s to chat advice or support don’t hesitate we all struggling here some more then others supports a good think and I love all u guys to Xxx stay strong to morrow the battle continues D
Indigojones5@gmail.com
I’m falling hitting every branch on the way down
crash bang wallop rock bottom head pounding no sound are around pitch black look around it dark here nothing grows only pain a sorrow black smoke no rainbows
best friends Ray and he cuts flesh not deep enough to die just enough to feel alive watch the blood glide
it could be sunny out side by its raining in here
When uv been depressed and suicidal for a long time you start to embrace the darkness finding ways to stay alive in the dark fog by self harming changing one pain for another only thing that helps emotional pain and thinking of death can calm ones active mind thinkin of a method iv got 3 methods to choose from OD not to keen on hanging might need to think more about needs planning and drinking poison need to do research or try the wrist
i don’t do highs and trains think it’s brutal shotgun to the face is the dream I feel so calm talking about […]
A lot of people are really having a tough time right now and I’m one of them
i can’t seems to get my head around why people get depressed? have I always been depressed subconsciously at one point my life was ok I guess then depression kicked in and it’s just escalated from there really I mean I self harmed since a kid not cutting scratching my self hitting then as I got older cutting came about
why do people get depressed some people can have everything live nice have money etc and still get depressed isit something in the water government trying to depopulate the earth […]
I really don’t know how I used to purge it’s so fucking hard now mayb because I’m getting older or weaker ? I have lost the will to live so I guess the will power has gone to so unless a miracle happens or I get it right next time I’m going to be fat and depressed no i won’t let that happen il kill myself before that happens hope I get the strength to get it right because watching my weight gain slowly is like a slow suicide in its self And people say things get better being alive is a living hell !!!
My mind is blank I want to write but can’t I’m physically here but mentally gone
think I really did die last year but my soul just not accepting to leave the body
Last week someone said I’m here for a reason what reason that what’s my purpose ?
i find it so hard to express how I’m really feeling or mayb I don’t know how I’m feeling
so the mental health people come to check up on me every 3 days now because what happened on Monday well the woman asked do I regret doing it I pursed and said noI don’t….
because my life is pretty much a mess I don’t know what to do were to start lost interest in everything I’m bored of life iv seen enough and been though a lot why be optimistic ? Yeah things can get better but finding happiness is what counts and I don’t tink il […]
I do love psychopath they emotionless they feel no emotion but they learn how to mimic theym which is awesome did u know they cry one eye at a time not both cry I read don’t no if it’s true but still being able to cry with no feelings or reason not really feeling up set sounds good right
and I love their eyes u can tell a psychopath by their eyes it’s called the reptilian gaze they look into your soul
like a animal about to kill that killer instinct the eye
antony Hopkins plays a great psychopath hannible
you ever seen blood in the moon light it […]
I really like these two songs right now I can relate to them so much in my dark hours
bring me to the horizon – drown
Who will fix me now? Dive in when I’m down?
Save me from myself, don’t let me drown.
Who will make me fight? Drag me out alive?
Save me from myself, don’t let me drown
linkin park – faint
I can’t feel the way I did before
Don’t turn your back on me
I won’t be ignored
Time won’t heal this damage anymore
Don’t turn your back on me
I won’t be ignored
Me-Already been laying here 3 hour
insomnia – haha yeah and I’m wide awake
me-my eyes burn Close eye
insomnia -u can close your eyes it don’t stop your brain from thinking about your whole life right til now
me-you do I we’ve almost been up 24hours
insomina – haha yeah so what who needs sleep ?
Right ….