Only so much I can take… I thought I was getting better but my sister had a blow up the other day… She told me I’ll regret it when she kills herself. She’s 12. I dont even know how the argument started… all I knew was I heard she was walking away in the woods so I ran out the door to get her… Now my moms worried about her. If she found out I think those things to? Im so tired… I keep wanting to hurt myself but idk how to get away with it….im so messed up.
Welcome, step inside my mind!
If you aren’t worried now, its a matter of time,
Till you break through the seal, and feel what i feel,
even then for you it will never be real.
My mental health? How bad could it be?
Well its hanging by threads! Im crazy you see?
Depression has me thinking of things that are vile,
I cut and i bruise and it makes me smile,
The pain I enjoy it, frightening enough,
And when I try to put the ones that I love,
first instead of myself,
It really makes me think…
Don’t do this they love you, try for them,
But my mind just continues to sink..
I needed help before this […]
I can’t stand this. How the hell, can you be fine one second and be thinking hey I might possibly be getting over this shit, and the next, something comes up and your worse than you were before. Why can’t I just get over it like people say I should. Im tired of always returning to the same damn depression over and over, people thinking im doing it for attention. And then people in my life complaining about stupid crap, I understand everything affects everyone differently but sometimes I’d like them to get a dose of what I go through EVERY DAY. and knowing what […]
Worried faces stare at me,
I try and hide the agony,
Buried within, so deep inside ,
So deep that I no longer cry.
nothing helps to cure the pain,
blood from my wrists like crimson rain,
so sad and helpless what to do,
When you have no one to turn to.
Close my eyes, get some sleep,
Silent tears no longer weep,
feel like nobody has to know
An eternal slumber i will go,
Eyelids heavy drift away,
To a hopeful bright and newer place,
How lost I was, when I found out,
The outcome of my chosen route,
my minds racing, so constantly,
i hardly have time to breathe,
Who knew the choice to just give up,
Would lead to a neverending depression.
Does anybody else have nightmares that make them afraid to sleep? Like when you should be able to get away from lifeyour dreams make it impossible? I wake up with scratches on my arms they are so bad… How do I get them to go away? Its hard enough trying to stay alive when im awake I dont need nightmares of me killing myself to add on top of everything….
damn its getting so bad. Does anybody feel like theyr so pissed at themselves, at the way they are, that you just want to hurt yourself? Lately its like I find any excuse to bleed or bruise. punching things cutting ‘accidentally’… I can’t even escape in my slee, I have nightmares I try and kill myself but I won’t die. And I wake up with scratches on my arms from my sleep…. And sadly the most important person never even notices… I feel like I can’t even talk to her because she’ll be pissed….. Were best friends, inseperable and yet she doesn’t ask what’s wrong… […]
Im so tired. Of everything. Im 16, divorced parents since I was young. Two half sisters. One with a disease which will end her life one day. There’s constant fighting about it. That’s all I ever hear anymore. To make it even better, my little sister talks about how she wants to hurt herself. She got that idea from me, because I’ve gotten caught cutting. Im not good at anything, there’s something wrong with every part of my body. I laugh with my best friend but if we aren’t together im worthless. I disgust myself. And there’s nothing I can do. I want to end […]
what do you do when you can’t take it anymore. You have people willing to help but because they probably tired of hearing it. And what can they do to help? Its not a quick fix. What do I do, when I have a best friend. And shes not a normal best friend, shes like a sister, but more. Someone I love more than anything in the world. Someone Im there for all the time and the only reason im here right now is because I love her to much to let her go. Selfish in a way I guess. But even tho she means […]