hello i posted here before once and got some good advice…but im feeling like ending my life more then ever. Everything ive worked on to become more optimistic and happy just seemed like a waste of time its gotten to the point where  ”smiling”  has become a chore. Ive tried to work on my family relationships to be happier and to be more social for them but they constantly remind me how pathetic i am i mean my gran would open the door to people and openly say ”this is my pathetic excuse of a grandson i couldnt be more ashamed to be his grandmother” and  my mother constantly reminding me how […]
hello this is my first using this and thank you in advance for taking the time to listen to this
since the age of four my mother became addicted to a various amount of  drugs, alcohol among whatever else she could get her hands on. She was always assoisated with drug dealers, alcoholics and just general people like that. Day after day since that age ive constantly be blamed for being alive and being born and that life without me would be easier for her and everyone else in the world. I constantly saw my younger brother be beaten up and thrown across the front room and bedroom by my mothers boyfriend while she was out scoring […]