It’s not really about the pain from the external factors because there are always ways and means to cope with those – it’s got a lot more to do with the fact that I simply cannot see the unique purpose to my entity being alive whatsoever. It’s pretty evident that the world would keep spinning without me and not to sound self-assuming or pompous but I find this realisation ghastly i.e “Am I really that insignificant?” Then I think of how I am original and different in some way, and so that can build humanity but that’s not true at all because every thought I’ve […]