All my life i have spent years hoping that things would turn out alright for once but it seems no matter what i do i always can’t get things right. I just don’t know where i belong in this world I’m not sure if i ave ever really belonged anywhere. sometimes i really just wish i wasn’t such a fuck up, that things went right for once.
“The greatest people are not those that strive to be like everyone else, the greatest people are those that strive to reach above and beyond everyone else.” Don’t spend too much of life trying to fit in and conforming to everyone else (unless thats truly wat u love) your time and effort are better spent doing other things.
If u could be doctor manhattan would u? to know ur entire past present n future simultaneously, to b invulnerable n never fear, never die or age, have the ability to manipulate even entire planets with ur mind, to be the only one of your kind, having to watch the world and those around u die n age as u remain forever the same, to be alone?
i always feel like its just me against the world. Ive always been the kindof person with a sort of protective bubble or shield around me that no one can penetrate i kno my little bubble isnt ideal n wont help me feel any less lonely but it keeps me safe it makes me feel like i can handle things it gives me the confidence to be able to do things and kno that i will withstand the pressures of others. I also focus almost exclusively on myself making sure that when all is said n done that i achieve what i set out to […]
i just want to be someones special person, i just want to be irreplacable to somebody. I want to be with someone who i would know that if i were gone i would b missed and that there life would never be the same without me, someone who at every waking moment i could tell myself that my life means the world to them I wish i was special
i really hate that feeling in november when you remember that thanksgiving and christmas are right around the corner again n u have to be around ur family n pretend to get along with them n be merry and wear a fake smile. i just wish there was someone i could be with on the holidays to avoid family members with and just not give a shit about other people. Normally i dont mind being single but when it comes to the holidays i wish i had someone to b with so we could be alone together n at least for a litle while not […]
i really dont like people give them any opportunity and they will hurt u and take advantage of ur vulnerabilities trusting in people just leads to dissapointment and expecting people to do the right thing leads to even more disappointment even ur family will take whoevers side is against u they wont listen to ur argument either all they care about is what u did wrong not wat anyone else has done to u. the day i can sustain myself monetarily will b the day i leave my family all behind forever i wont write wont visit not even if theyve been hospitalized after leaving […]
There r so many things in my life i regret. i just dont seem to ever say or do the right things like what i do is never good enough. alot of the time it makes me feel like a fuck up like i just cant get my shit together but it always comforts me to kno that one day i will b able to leave and just live away from everyone. I feel that as ive gotten older i just suck at relationships. Its not anyone elses fault im truly just an asshole. Idk i just wish that i didnt hav to worry about […]
as a person I can generally endure alot losing friends, doing bad in school, arguments with my family, deadlines, a slowly declining bank account and other daily stresses i can survive a lot on my own but today everything kindof just got to me a litl bit. Today i felt my heart seriously racing im not even exagerrating it got to the point where i thought i was gona hav a heart attack. Im on the skinny side too it wasnt really due to physiological causes it was mostly just me getting to that level of stress. im striving to b a doctor/surgeon n im […]
My philosophy in life is always want something, but dont ask for the impossible and definitely dont expect anything for free.
Life is a challenge there may be challenges around every corner but dont sit down n call it quits, find things u love and at least make an attempt to pursue them.
for everyone having a bad day today tumblr_maxhjbVDfI1qd5dav.gif i know its just a bunny but hopefully it might cheer someone up as much as it cheered me up
in my lifetime ive realized friends are some of the most dangerous people youll ever meet, the trust, time and effort you give them gives them alot of power over your emotions and state of mind be careful who youre friends with. If u ever find yourself without a friend or good friends then do the things you love that make you happy
i have really bad acne scars and seeing all my friends hav great skin makes me really hate myself for being ugly i have to turn my face a certain way when i talk to them so they dont see my big scars
“they say that the world was built for two only worth living if somebody if loving you”
-lana del rey
This line makes me depressed because im alone but it makes me feel a little hopeful that someday ill find someone who loves me n my life will have value to someone
my life is falling apart right infront of me i didnt get into the school i wanted i didnt get into the college program i wanted  i just suck at school now im alone n scared my friends dont know what i feel inside nor do i want to tell them n i just really want to just do drugs and drink. Ive never smoked anything or drank anything in my life but nothing has really worked out for me so far n im kindof losing hope for myself. im not sure what to do with myself anymore