I don’t wanna live this life anymore, I don’t wanna feel anymore. I don’t wanna live.
I’m starting to think I really have a lot of issues, I don’t know what to do with myself and my life. I’m seriously going crazy. I don’t know if it’s my mind playing tricks on me or not. But the voices in my head are starting to win and convince me I’m crazy. The only way to make the voices stop is to do drugs, and I’m scared and alone.
I have never cared about boys much, but there’s just this one that I can’t get out of my head. I hate him so much that I love him. It makes me sick. He’s horrible for me, he doesn’t give a shit about me I mean nothing to him, yet he means everything to me. I don’t know how this happened. I stayed my distance, I moved on was engaged. And then Mr.Wrong showed back up in my life and I quickly became a mess again. I hate this evil spell he has me under. I beat myself up inside because I don’t understand why […]
The one person who ever thought anything of me left my side over a year and a half ago, my big brother.
I miss him oh so much!
He always had faith in me, no one else ever has.
He always knew I was a good person.
Everyone thinks I’m horrible and a piece of shit.
I don’t know what to do without him, all I want is to be with him again.
I will never be the same without him.
I lost myself when he died.
And I don’t think I’ll ever get myself back.
Should I just save myself the hurt and end […]
It kills my, it eats me up inside knowing that no matter what I do will ever be good enough for anyone. I let people control me and I do what they want me to do so they’re happy and it’s still not good enough. I’m still not doing it the right way or their way. I hate that I’m such a fuck up I can’t stand it. I’ve already tried killing myself before and my mom ran in on me and rushed me to the hospital. I couldn’t even do that right. I just wanna curl up and never come out of my room. […]