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Heartwellx

I often find myself falling into ruts of anxiety and depression. I know I can't be the only one, it just makes me feel alone. My life is a pretty good life and I try to hold onto that. I am who I want to be even if it's not always the best decision, so I'm told. Everyday is a struggle and the best part about it is the people around you trying to make your black and white world a little brighter.

Silence is Golden

by Heartwellx 9/29/2015

written by Heartwellx

I’m beginning to lose my voice; not through a health condition or illness but because everything I say is meaningless…no one listens and I know deep down I’m not worth the time. I’m not funny and I say idiotic things, you’re suppose ignore stupidity right? I guess it makes sense now. I’ve been feeling like this hole in my chest getting deeper and deeper and I know it’ll eventually eat right through me till I’m completely erased. And to be honest, it relieves me. Maybe someday soon I’ll actually work up the courage to finally do it. It just gets so lonely.

It hasn’t […]

9/29/2015 5 comments

Maybe it’s best….

by Heartwellx 7/6/2013

written by Heartwellx

Ever since I was 12 I’ve been contemplating suicide. I’ve tried to sit down with my parents because I felt that I need professional help but they brushed it off and claimed it to be some sort of phase I’d eventually grow out of. I didn’t even know what the fuck that meant but I can easily tell you it was no adolescent phase. I’m 20 now going on 21 and I’m still currently struggling with thoughts of suicide. I’ve been off and on with medications and it drives me insane. I’ve attempted suicide twice but the first time the rope snapped and the second […]

7/6/2013 1 comment