I am hurting repeatedly. Guilted for feeling suicidal and a burden. I’ve lost everyone I cared for, but I guess it’s a good thing as I now realize I never meant a thing. No hope. The past traumas I’ve endured, can’t stop reliving…guilt guilt guilt. Humiliation. Let me die. We are all ticking time bombs, everyone leaves this earth. Why can’t I have the right to end my suffering at my own time?