i have not posted i a while i’ve been doing good thought i had rid myself of my self destructive thoughts but they are creeping back into my head my head has a great way of twisting every little thing into the worse case scenario and i’m really worried about my future i don’t really know where to go from here so i’m going to start where i started last time here its been a while so i’m sure there tons of new people introduce yourself please i need to find a safe circle again
i dont really care what we watch just pick something and ill make it happen i just want something to do we can watch it at https://rabb.it/hiitsme0819
i have to be in the rabb.it room please hmu on skype or something b4 trying to enter so i can get in there and let people in i would love to watch movies with people i just dont want to have to sit in the room and keep my finger crossed that someone joins me it does notify me in my email when someone tries to enter but by the time i check it its too late because i done missed whoever tried to get in whenever i get those notifications i do click the allow them in button but i always seem to […]
anybody down for a movie and conversation tonight the room the movie will be played on is https://rabb.it/hiitsme0819 or you can hmu on skype @ hiitsme0819 or go to our main chatroom @ http://tinychat.com/thelostsociety
Scared and hurt he looks around
No one moves or makes a sound
Wipes his tears away and runs so far to hide away
One fine day he sits there
On a hilltop in open air
Looking for something he can’t find anywhere
From the outside he looks fine…
When you look deep down inside
You can see the anger flaming up inside his head
From the outside he looks fine…
When you look deep down inside
You can see the anger flaming up inside his head
Scared and hurt he looked around
Looking up at us he frowned
Fought his tears away and ran so far to […]
this was briefly discussed in my last post but i figured id start a new post about it so it can reach as many ppl as possible like the title says i want to try and set up a regular movie night for SPers there a website called rabbit that allows shared streaming from any website and up to 15 ppl to chat while watching whatever if anyone has any ideas on how to make this happen my skype is hiitsme0819 i really hope we can make this happen the website has one main flaw where ppl cant get into the room unless the person […]
im watching season 5 of american horror story in rabbit if anyone want to join me it doesnt have to be american horror story i can play anything i just want to have like a movie night with ppl or something a bit bored atm
https://rabb.it/hiitsme0819
i want to yell scream at the top of my lungs let them know how im really doing give them a chance to save me a chance to reach out and offer another option just one reason to stay a chance to show me someone out there still cares but i cant find the words dont know how to get it all off my mind without seeming like im just fishing for attention but maybe i need a little attention maybe i need the people in my life to let me know i still matter
hey guys i havent posted in a while i thought i was getting my depression under control but this morning it hit me again like a ton of bricks if anyone remembers a while ago i posted a long post and in it i chose a date to hold off until to see if i was feeling better and i was for a month or so but now im not so sure im starting to think all the recent changes in my life just kept my mind to busy to focus on the pain but now that im settling back into a routine my fucked […]
What a tangled web stuck in a loop of hating myself for not having a life and not having a life because im to depressed and socially awkward to even try
Why the hell is it so much harder to cope on some days. Feel like screaming at the top of my lungs then breaking down in tears WTF
gone away now does he dare
take the path that leads nowhere
all alone and without hope
he’ll no longer have to cope
just a sip is all it takes
to wash away all his mistakes
half asleep and fading fast
now his pain will finally pass
now he’s gone and how they cry
in the grounds where he will lie
no one cared when he was here
why now must they shed a tear
Honestly, I don’t. Just the though of taking my life scares the shit out of me. I just feel like i no longer have anything left worth living for. Everything i have ever known is gone. My new life is so fucking pathetic. The same exact routine day after day. No ambition to even try and do anything different.
Any hope of a “normal” life i may have had in the past is gone. I may have what i need to survive, but is that really living? Is that reason enough to keep pushing through, to keep telling myself i can make it for one […]
i still dream about you every time i fall asleep i never imagined pleasant dreams could feel like nightmares but no matter how hard i try i cant stay awake forever i lose a little more of myself every time i wake up
i give up i think im going to go crawl in a whole and wait for death since im to damn scared to do it myself
http://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2015/05/07-Track-7.mp3
that about sums it up
i never want to sleep again whenever i do i wake up and feel like im a pos at least when ive been awake too long and start to feel the effects of sleep deprivation i no longer care that life is a joke seems like my most suicidal moments are in the first 12 or so hours after sleep really wish there was a drug free way to sleep even less than i do now it would be really nice to just not wake up
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