I’m only 16 years old. I live in a loving LDS family with 4 brothers, a lazy dog, and a couple of gerbils. My brothers and I are all very gifted in the “learning process” and have been called smart throughout our entire childhoods. When i was in 6th or 7th grade, i decided to be like Jesus, try to be perfect. In order to do that, i had to regulate my emotions. I withdrew from friends and family and observed how people were supposed to act in society. I created a “character” for me to play when out in the real world. A quiet […]
Zach - 16
Zach - 16
I'm only 16 years old. I live in a loving LDS family with 4 brothers, a lazy dog, and a couple of gerbils. My brothers and I are all very gifted in the learning process and have been called smart throughout our entire childhoods. When i was in 6th or 7th grade, i decided to be like Jesus, try to be perfect. In order to do that, i had to regulate my emotions. I withdrew from friends and family and observed how people were supposed to act in society. I created a "character" for me to play when out in the real world. A quiet always nice and considerate smart athletic never ever stressed go with the flow always follows the rules kind of guy. Life was supposed to be great for me. But when i observed how people act because of society i realized that i hated them, but it wasn't their faults. Society teaches us from an early age what is good, what is bad, what we should do, how we should think, what we should learn, etc. Why can't we just decide that for ourselves? Why would i want to live in a chaotic screaming killing murderous strongest survive environment that is based on lies. (I already do figuratively) I've read only a couple posts on this site so far but I am amazed. These posts described exactly how i felt about the world. I am left with but one question, How can I fight society and life based off lies? I don't know if anyone knows that answer and if there was one, I don't have the freedom to put it into action. I am only 16. I don't have a job, i despise school so much that it makes me want to drop out. I can't do anything yet. I have no hope for my future.