I’m only 16 years old. I live in a loving LDS family with 4 brothers, a lazy dog, and a couple of gerbils. My brothers and I are all very gifted in the “learning process” and have been called smart throughout our entire childhoods. When i was in 6th or 7th grade, i decided to be like Jesus, try to be perfect. In order to do that, i had to regulate my emotions. I withdrew from friends and family and observed how people were supposed to act in society. I created a “character” for me to play when out in the real world. A quiet always nice and considerate smart athletic never ever stressed go with the flow but strong in his beliefs (not really mine) always follows the rules kind of guy. Life was supposed to be great for me. But when i observed how people act because of society i realized that i hated them, but it wasn’t their faults. Society teaches us from an early age what is good, what is bad, what we should do, how we should think, what we should learn, etc. Why can’t we just decide that for ourselves? This world seems great from an outside perspective. Everyone is contributing to a single cause. They are all united. But underneath, this world is a chaotic wasteland that pretends that it creates when it really destroys, runs away from the truth, and is based entirely on lies that brainwash our children into becoming “sheep”. I just realized that churches call us “sheep” and Jesus is our Shepherd. It is equivalent to saying that we should have no will, even though they preach about free agency. I’ve read only a couple posts on this site so far but I am amazed. These posts described exactly how i felt about the world. I am left with but one question, How can I fight society and a life based off lies? I don’t know if anyone knows that answer and if there was one, I don’t have the freedom to put it into action. I am only 16. I don’t have a job, i despise school so much that it makes me want to drop out. I can’t do anything yet. I have no hope for my future. The only options I have are being “put away” in a mental facility that will try to cure my “illness” and brainwash me again and spend the rest of my life like that, or become an ignorant little sheep again, contributing to something that i do not approve. (I think i’m a little too young for suicide though, maybe in a couple of years if things stay like this)
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There are sheep, wolves, and then there are shepherds. Which one are you deciding to be? The sheep follow obediently, and their dull robotic existences are lead by wolves who live an empty existence, looking for a way to fill up the hole within them. The shepherds exist to watch as the sheep fall and the wolves climb over their decaying bodies, observers of the natural cycle.
It all depends on how you decide to live or exist in this world or society. Yes, we are programmed from birth to differentiate what is right, wrong, and necessary. This program hinders us from living freely. Along the way, we develop into what we will become later, sheep, wolf, or shepherd. We will hopefully eventually deviate from the path laid before us to follow our own path, falling into the role we’ve chosen to become the person we decide to be. This is just my opinion, of course.
Don’t choose to be a sheep. High school is about getting through it so don’t let any of those idiots(teachers,classmates,etc) get you down. Don’t let your family who may want the best for you but may go about it in the wrong way get you down. Society is stupid the quicker you realize that every one is trying to sell something to you the quicker you get past it and try to make your mark.