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Have you ever reached that level of desperation?

by iicookieii 11/5/2015

written by iicookieii

The one where you’re so desperate to kill yourself that you’re willing to do anything? Where you’re willing to swallow anything, try anything, jump in front of anything? That level of desperation where the smallest and most minute of annoyances is enough to convince you that life isn’t worth living and that your only conceivable course of action is suicide? Where you’re just so desperate to end it all you just want anything to come along and take you away, even if you know that it won’t kill you, just hurt you.

I hate it when I reach that level. It’s like being a a wolf […]

11/5/2015 1 comment

My Skin is Writhing

by iicookieii 11/4/2015

written by iicookieii

I can’t breathe, I want to scratch, claw, rub my skin but I cannot. I’m starting to crack open and the uglyness is starting to shine through. I’m not sure how much longer I can keep together this facade of normalcy. I’m breaking down in tears and lashing out at people around me, throwing things, wrecking things.

I’m trying to keep things smooth and yet I’m not sure how much longer I can possibly stay here on this God-forsaken planet when everything inside me is falling apart.

And yet I’m trying to take deep breaths, trying to breathe, trying to hold on to any hint of rationale. Impulsivity breeds […]

11/4/2015 2 comments

Lies & Distractions

by iicookieii 10/28/2015

written by iicookieii

I’ve come to believe that medication and therapy are nothing more than distractions and lies meant to blind people to the truth.

When I view society, it’s obsession with reality television, celebrities, and it’s influence on buying happiness, I see proof. When I watch the news, I see horrible disasters. I see people dying, people being murdered, people being slain. I see greed, pain, and suffering. I see war, drought, famine. And of course, what do they always do after these stories play? They find something trivial to distract you from the issues of the world. They tell you about Beyonce’s latest album, or some dipshit story about […]

10/28/2015 4 comments

Any good pro-suicide forums or chats?

by iicookieii 7/31/2015

written by iicookieii

I’ve been desperate to find some pro-suicide chat rooms or forums, ones that are well-frequented. Many of the old ones are dead. Forums and chats where one can make suicide-pacts are also greatly appreciated. I know I can’t be the only one searching. Thank you in advance.

7/31/2015 5 comments