feeling bad ass. it was only a few, cut was more deep than wide, with sewing needle and thread. didnt hurt as bad as the actual cut. so fucked up that im not more disturbed by this.
Fuck i am so bored! I want to have some fun before i die. I lost my chance to lose my virginity and get high. My chance has a girlfriend now. Oh regrets.
How are you? I’m fine. What I mean: I want to die.
What’s wrong? I’m just tired. What I mean: I’m depressed.
What happened to your finger? It’s nothing. What I mean: I cut myself.
I haven’t seen you in a while. I’ve been busy. What I mean: I’ve been curled up in bed.
Why do you read so much? I don’t know. What I mean: I hate reality.
Am I okay?
What does it mean to feel okay?
Will I ever be okay?
I wouldn’t know what okay felt like if you hit me in the head with it.
I don’t know how to explain it but I will try. It takes a lot to actually get me to feel something and when I do it is usually negative. The negative emotion will be there for like an hour and then it’s gone. I can’t stay mad at people. I want to die because I fear the future and I don’t like myself. If you were to ask me what I felt right now I’d say I didn’t know. I don’t think that is normal. I realize now that it could be the medication I’m on but if I miss a day I end […]
want to die, have to live
I can’t do it anymore
I want to die
Fuck my life
Fall to the floor
Pick up the razor
I just needed to throw up so i drank nailpolish remover, hair heat protectant, and ate what my mom told me was a poisonous flower. Don’t drink nail polish remover it is Horrible, and you will not be able to drink enough to make you sick. even along with other harmful things. I didnt feel well the whole school day it was pretty awful and it was all for nothing.
Ive have procrastinated wrting this paper and i cant seem to get started so i just just keep cutting myself instead of writing it!! Writing always has made me want to die and i cant kill myself now and fianls are tomorrow so i cant skip!! im in 11th grade.
I really need a Macbeth paper that compares and contrasts any of the following things:
the degree to which Macbeth and Lady Macbeth are responsible for the out come of the play.
the possible reasons behind lady macbeth and macbeths hallucinations
macbeth at the beginning of the play and at the end of the […]
I’m the problem and I am fucking permanent unless i kill myself!
Do you ever watch shows where the police try to solve murders, but instead of wanting to be the police you imagine yourself as the murder victim
The first time i tried to kill myself i was not thinking about the answer to these questions: Who will be the last person i talk to be? What will my last words be? What is the last thing i will eat? Who will come to my funeral? ect… ect… I really wish that first time had worked because right now those questions really bug me. : (
I see drawings, pictures, trinkets, clothes and I just want to get rid of them like that will make memories from before just disappear and stop haunting me. I wish it were true. I wish I had amnesia and would never remember who is was and still am.
want to cut right now but i know i shouldn’t. Suggestions?
If i overdoesd on my depression medication, would that mean i’d be extra happy while i died?
I know I should have mentioned this earlier, but I’m suicidal. Except I can’t kill myself because I would never devastate my family like that. I’m suicidal because of my depression, anxiety about my appearance, fear of failure and very important life decisions that will need to be made very soon, and what will come in the future. There hasn’t been a day that’s gone by in the past four years which I haven’t thought about suicide, whether it was about doing it or just about it in general. I’ve come to notice that suicide is inescapable; it’s in T.V shows, movies, commercials, in the […]
I don’t want to be here. I stay because I don’t want to hurt my family. I hate my life, it has no point. I hate myself; I’m ugly inside and out. I’m depressed, but I’m too depressed to do anything about it. I hurt myself when instead I should help myself. I don’t have motivation to do anything, but I need to do something to help my depression. ALL I THINK ABOUT IS DEATH; MY DEATH.
Hey! I’m in (as the title says) Turks and Caicos on vacation with my mother. It’s our second day on the island and I’m already burnt to hell. ïŒ My mom noticed my scars. At first she thought it was a bruise (I have a lot of small scars all in one area) and I said I didn’t know where I got it. Then later she said it looked like it really hurt and could she touch it. I of course had to tell her that they were scars because she would have realized what they were anyway. I’m disappointed because I have been using […]
Negative
1. I’m UGLY
2. I’m fat
3. I’m disgusting
4. I’m stupid
5. I’m boring
6. I’m depressed
7. I’m suicidal
8. I’m not confident enough
9. I’m addicted to hurting myself
10. I’m crazy?
Positive
1. I’m …
Does anyone else feel awkward around people who know how you feel or that you’ve tried to kill yourself when things related to suicide come on T.V.? Because I dread depression medication commercials and shows that I know could have suicide in them when my family is around. It just feels so awkward. I hate it. Like tonight I watched a British movie called Chatroom with my sisters and I couldn’t leave because then they would know that it made me feel awkward. I’ve never talked about my attempt with anyone except my counselor (and some of you guys, obviously) and even then we didn’t […]