This is not an easy thing to admit, but I do it willingly. Â I’m addicted to pornography and masturbation. It’s starting to take its toll, 10+ years of masturbation and about 5+ years of pornography. It leaves me extremely depressed and I constantly revisit my addiction to get the temporary rush. I feel more lonely afterwords each time. I don’t like dating because I feel insecure and unworthy. I don’t feel good enough to be with anyone, I fell like I tear people down and suck them into my sadness. I’ve always been different and people notice. I honestly try to be kind and friendly […]
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InTheEnd
Nearly twenty-five years of life…and what have I got to show for it? Not much. The disappointment I’ve caused is overwhelming, disappointing my family, friends and myself. I grew up in a very religious home where nothing but good things were expected. It cuts deep realizing the failure that I am. I’m the youngest and all my siblings seem to be doing something worthwhile with there lives. They were successful in college, religious obligations, and career opportunities. I have failed in all those things.  Unmarried and unemployed, I am full of guilt and shame. I hate myself. I have no motivation, no drive to do anything that takes effort. Apathy, I think […]