I was raped by a boyfriend out of my virginity. I’d finally gotten out of that relationship, but was terrified of having to face him and deal with our “neutral” friends. I knew that he would try to beg for me back and I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to handle that. I felt like wasted filth not being able to handle any of the memories of his abuse. Just disgusted and blaming myself for what he did to me. I was also going through medical issues that I attributed to him, family trouble, and grief from the loss of a loved one. I […]