I always thought i wasn’t need in life. Like a disease devouring someone until they die. I felt like a disgrace to my family for years, but i don’t know why. My father always told my he will proud of me no matter. Yet i never accepted what he said that day. I wish i was never born to be able to feel this way.  I just want to end this suffering once and for all. If i do go many people will miss me. But if i don’t i I’m going to loss it. I need help… i need an answer. HELP… Should I Go Or No!?
jazz
I always loved to listen to music. Never danced to it but just listened and it made me think.  I mean REALLY thinking. It  made me think about life and how I saw it or about my anger towards people. I thought about things that normally wouldn’t cross my mind that much. Music made me look harder, think deeper.  Listing to music made me as well  happy you could say. However not completely. There is still a huge gap in my heart of sorrow, anger and darkness. I wish music could close the gape….. but it never will.
Here is my favorite song I listen to always. Makes me cry every time. How I […]
I can’t take this pain anymore. It’s eating my insides away every minute, every day. Nothing I can do can get rid of it and nothing will every get rid of it. It’s too late. I’ve been hurt so bad i can’t see happiness. All I see every day when I walk out my house is Darkness. A black sky no moon or sun shining. The plants all dead never to be green again. The water is black to turn you sick and mad. In my eyes all I see is Darkness and within it Sadness, Anger, and Despair. To make me happy or feel another emotion again, you have to remove these from my eye’s […]
I’ve been feeling so miserable lately, actually most of my life. I feel no one knows that I exist on this planet. I need the know the truth, I’ve been living in lies may whole life. Crying every single day wishing I never been born. I seem to bee so happy to others, But they don’t know how I really feel. Breaking into tears, angry at everyone i know, Living in secrets and lies. Being in Darkness.