Should I Go Or Not?

I always thought i wasn’t need in life. Like a disease devouring someone until they die. I felt like a disgrace to my family for years, but i don’t know why. My father always told my he will proud of me no matter. Yet i never accepted what he said that day. I wish i was never born to be able to feel this way.  I just want to end this suffering once and for all. If i do go many people will miss me. But if i don’t i I’m going to loss it. I need help… i need an answer. HELP… Should I Go Or No!?