So after my last post ive took the perception of life to be what ever i make it. I nearly did it, I nearly left, id taken enough painkillers to almost most me drowsy and my car was full of fuel. Drove as fast as my car would take me and was heading for the large metal lampost i has picked out earlier on the motorway. It came into sight and i aimed at it.. However i swerved past it and carried on. Felt disgusted with myself that i had failed and was forcing myself to carry on life.
A few days of crying and i […]