I have one friend and I love him so much. No one could ever understand how much I love him.
I’m mentally “ill”, and he’s not, and he doesn’t understand me, but he loves me anyways, even if he can’t understand the things I feel…
And I’m so happy that he loves me so much.
But it’s so hard to give him space when all I want to do is be around him.
I want to spend all of my time with him.
I’ve always been so lonely all of the time.
And now I have not just a friend, but a lover, and it makes me so happy, to not be alone anymore.
I can talk to someone now. A real person. I can talk to him, and he’s a real person, and I know that he’s real.
But he can’t understand what I feel. He doesn’t understand the voices.
And right now I just don’t understand what’s going on right now.
He doesn’t want to see me, he doesn’t want to be with me, what’s going on??
Tomorrow I’m seeing the psychiatrist, I need him to come with me, I need to get more medication, I don’t want to hallucinate anymore, he’s all I have
I have so much confusion inside of me, and he won’t talk to me, why won’t he talk to me…
All I keep hearing are the voices, and they’re not him, but they can try to sound like him, but I know they aren’t him
I need him.
And he won’t talk to me.
And he doesn’t want to see me.
But he’s real I know he’s real.