I’m going to break! Ahh :'( It hurts soooo bad to cry.. like you have no idea.. I feel so depressed today.. ‘down in the dumps’ I can’t take it.. I want to cut.. that’s breaking my 6 month going.. ahh :'( well im gunna..
Your such a piss poor of a father.. You loose my respect for you everyday.. Gosh! How am I ‘trying to piss you off’ by asking MY mother, YOUR wife where to put something.. Then tell me not to talk to you for something sooo small!? You’ve called me a *****, told me I was dead to you, told me You hated me, Oh yeah and called me a fatass the other week.. Way to make me feel any better about myself. & For your information I do things unlike you.. How was I being ‘cocky’ when I asked you were did you want me […]
Honestly, what is the point of hurting someone you loved? There is no point is there? & there never will be, do you understand yet? It wouldn’t suprise me if you did just use me. I’m sure yoy do that to all girls.. You said “i know how it feels! I’ll never do it to you!” that was jusy a bunch of bullshit lies? I’d honestly rather be dead then have to think of you, i fucking hatie it! Why did i have to go through this?! I’m beggjng you to stop but will you ever? Probably not. Will it eber be the same? Doubtful.. […]
Why put someone in the pain of lienig to the,, & make them believe something that wasn’t true. I thought you cared.. Clearly I thought wrong. This is why I cannot trust, I get lied to & hurt soo many times.. Do you hear me? Are you happy of what you did to me? Hope she’s better. Funny thing is; Your best friend said “Dang, G fucked up.. our way prettier then her & much better.’
Why would you pretend to care for me? Act like you actually liked me.. Dang dude.. You fucked with me.. & It hurt.. Especially not knowing what I did so wrong for you to stop talking to me.. You put my number into your friends phone.. Why? To see how I’m doing? Fuck with you dude! Rog says you stopped talking to me because I’m ‘Different’ … How? I don’t even want to do this anymore.. I can’t stop thinking about you.. You really hurt me & I don’t know if I can except this one.. The pain in my heart is strong this […]
; I feel lost.. Confused.. Unsure of what I am doing.. Why do I get hooked on things that can only hurt me.. Why do I smoke? Why do I do it all? Is it to get rid of the pain? Why am I like this? Oh bj & a ride to get weed.. What have I became? It’s a disaster.. I feel like a whore? I had sex when I was 13? With a 16 year old? I feel soooo gross. Why would I do such a thing.. The high lasts forever & makes me feel amazing.. Am I hooked? Could this go farther? […]
I’m soooo fucking stupid.. Why did i do it? So i was talking to this guy& i thought he really liked me. He started to ignore me for 4 days. & so i was like wtfe imma go get high, So i had an older guy friend pick us up & take us tol go get some weed.. he told us all he didn’t have a girlfriend.. & i made out with him, he forced his hands down my pants & i tried to pull it out & we made out & crap.. but i was high so i was like okay? & today.. this […]
So this past week my ex has been texting me? Strange right. Am i just his back up for his sex addiction? Like after him & Meg broke up he went to me while he was talking to Brook, Yet he tells me Brook cheated tf? Im not your sex toy… your 16 stop having sex..
Why do i feel so .. merr slutty ? Heres how it goes.. I’ve been talking to L as friends since April.. Now hes saying he loved me.. Yet in October he totally fucked me over.. Ignored me started seeing a new girl.. Now L is telling me he likes me alot & shit.. but i kinda like G .. G & L go to school together.. Same grade I do so believe.. FML :((((
L is a sweet guy.. but doesn’t say much..
G is a charming guy.. says alot.. understands me more.. Makes me smile a bunch…
I just feel horrible! I was talking […]
Here we go again.. All those painful thoughts of you.. The way you used me for sex, the way your kissed me, the way you lied, all of it..
You took my innocence away when I was 13.. I don’t understand how you could? I just wanted to cuddle.. But every time we madeout you would get hard & want me, slowly undress me & pull me on top.. When I tried to get off you pulled me back down.. It hurt so bad! It felt like fire inside of me.. How could you?
I hurt myself today to see if i still felt the pain.. You didn’t know what you were thinking.. Neither did I.. I wasted my weekends on you.. You say your sorry? I don’t think so.. Sorry isn’t good enough anymore.. You never meant to hurt me, that might be true but do you really think i will believe you after you did that to me? I know I was dumb to do it.. I thought you really did like me, but now I know it was all a lie. You date me for 3 days, have sex with me.. then dump me 2 days […]
I wonder what I fight for, Why i choose to stay. Is it because of you? Of course not. You hurt me physicaly and mentaly.. Yes I am not preoud I lost my virginity to you at 13.. I wanted to wait till marrige.. I love how you admitted to being a ‘Sex Addict’ … It is rather sad you’ve had sex with 16 girls maybe over 20 times, & you’re only 16.. But hey I have no room to speak.. You hurt me today, You hurt me yesterday.. I will remember everything..
What have I became? Everyone I know goes away.. But You, You just […]
I’m feeling so used right now.. Lonely & rather depressed.. You use me.. I let you do things I regret in so many ways.. I wanted to feel loved, you said ‘my friend begged me’ so you can hurt me? Fuck you . You asshole… :”( get out of here with those bullshit excuses!
Honestly…
Goodbye Black butterfly..
Well.. Have been packing for a bit.. Don’t know where I’m gunna go at this point. My mother like fucking hates me.. So yeah.. She took basically all my stuff out of my room and threw it away.. Just because it want to come home tf? I’m sorry I don’t feel welcome in this dang family! Probably gunna be leaving tomorrow to get my shit and go.. I have no cluebwhere my money is? What now? I don’t want to stay here I’m scared.. And sad…
When you pushed me into your car?
When you started touching me?
When I said ” Jerod, please unlock the doors, I want out”
But You didn’t listen..
You kept driving & Touching me..
So I turned off your car..
And tried to get out..
I was only 13..
You were 17..
I thought you were a ‘Family Friend’
How about when you hit me so hard..
Or asked me to sext?
You always sent me pictures of you..
You wanted to take my virginity..
But I told you No..
You got very mad..
& Went off on me..
You asked me why I don’t text you anymore, all I could say is ‘No Clue’ I know why i don’t text me,
1. You used me
2. I don’t want to keep falling in love with you
3. Your a douche
4. I can’t TAKE this anymore…
I’m sorry..
I want to hate every part of you with me, yet I still love you.. You just totally fucked me over.. I want to give up on EVERYTHING, would it be bad if i was gone? Mhh.. It’s getting harder now.. I don;t know how long i’ll be able to do this anymore.. Gosh dang it! Please I’m begging you help me?
You are pathetic.. Using me? Who the hell do you think you are? I thought it was odd how you just wanted sex, even thoe we are not dating! Then I go onto facebook & see you gave your ex a hickey after we hooked up? Then telling me about ‘Brooklyn’ sounds like a whore too me. I think you should just be alone till you can figure your shit out dude! ***** your laying in bed with her yesterday when you had sex with me Thursday!? Todays fucking Sunday! What the hell.. I’m done.. I can’t do this shit anymore!! I THOUGHT YOU LOVED […]
Yes; How long can I stay here?
I get treated like shit! There is no other way to explain it. I still believe my father hates me deep down.. for calling the cops on him because he was out of control.. Would you rather of been to prison for the rest of your life? Exactly! I saved your sorry ass. When you said to me ‘I hate you’ ‘Your dead to me’ ‘I don’t want you in my life’ & also called me a ‘*****’ ;; I just wanted to punch you! See why beer does to you?! This hasn’t happened once, its happened […]
You ask me for sex; You ask to hang; You kissed me; Yet you hang with her? Then you text me about another girl? Boy get your mind straight! Dang, No I will not take you back, is this how it goes? K, M, K, M, B, K ? I don’t think so hunn. Get your mind straight.. Please? I remember when you were sooo close to hitting me for cutting i felt it all when you punched that door.. Please baby.. Keep going..
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