i pushed myself to get out of bed today to go to work
just to find i dont know if i can put on that fake front
for anyone anymore. i’m scared to let anyone get close
to me again. im tired of being hurt and abandon by
people who say that they love me. i’m just so tired of
hurting inside and hiding it. i hope i can make it thru
today. i feel so sick and my hands are shaking so bad
i can barley type. i just want evething to go away.
im a 39 year old man with no life, no wife and no future.
i just tried to hang myself and failed. why do i feel this way
all the time. did finding my mom in a field with a bottle of
pills do this to me. nobody cares anyway. is it because i
drink like my dad did. i miss mom and dad so much. now
that they are gone i feel so alone all the time. no one
knows how hard it was growing up with a suicidel mother
and a drunk father, but in the end i still loved them. i try to
drink to kill the pain, but always […]
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